Never Waking Up

All drinks that I've been drinking
All work I'm workin' on
I've been losin' sight of something
And I'm thinkin' that it's gone
So long

And I ain't never waking up

There's a pile of my lyrics that no one will ever listen to
There's miles to the finish that I don't think that I'm gettin' to
Can't fight it all the waves
I can't fight it every day, no way

I ain't never waking up

We tried and tried we tried our best
Gettin ideas out there like fighter jets
Intents were good intents
And our hearts our minds were so intense
We groom our failure, groom our heads
Groom my mindset, give it breath
Made room and time for you to vent
Moved into new space, paid my rent

Couldn't save up any money
Couldn't save up for the groc'ry store
Couldn't save any hope
So I tried to borrow all of yours

I don't wanna fuck it up
Don't wanna break down your door
I just wanna to turn it up
Cause I wreck it all and more

I keep spending all my money, I've been pouring all my dimes
Into learning how to tell you everything that's on my mind, so fine

And I ain't never waking up

Write a novel. Fly away from the fam
I knew you had big dreams and visions but damn
Said we don't understand
Well we want to
I'm just trying to dig deep and hear about the things that haunt you
You push me out, and tell me that "Aww I got shit to figure"
Fool we've all got shit to figure
and sinker
So over here I'm gonna linger
Til you come to your senses and think bigger

I do shit alone until I'm reachin' out
And then I'm reachin' out to everyone that we forgot about
I been losin' count, so we chill n shoot the shit
That's why you and I, our friendship, is fruit to this

I could name names of all the kids who bought me French Fries when I was hungry
Kenny lent me money
JVB made my birthday a birthday
Made a fresh meal and made me dessert things

Sometimes just need a listenin' ear
Sometimes you're giving me hope instead of buyin' me beer
I'm losin' vision in a minute I ain't seein' it clear
But I'm not lost in the confusion, 'cuz you visit me here

My sister, alarming and charming, making moves
Doing everything that she says that she'll do
See this my team and this my squad
My friends roll deep, every one of them a young God

Got love and a little hate
I'm allowed to make mistakes
I'm allowed to make mistakes
Say a hundred maybe thousand times
Nothin even seems to change

See, this my jam and this my shit
I, I miss Pam and I miss Jim and
I miss home, I'm missin' it
I miss sunshine, I miss wind

And I ain't never waking up

Couldn't save up any money
Couldn't save up for the groc'ry store
Couldn't save any hope
So I tried to borrow all of yours

I don't wanna fuck it up
Don't wanna break down your door
I just wanna to turn it up
Cause I wreck it all and more

I'm afraid of everybody but I'm always reaching out, I hope that
Someone takes the album, and they play it hella loud, real loud

And I ain't never waking

I tried to write you all a record
Tried to write you all a song
But I ended up in blankets
Thinking all of it was wrong
So long

I ain't never waking up

I got a pile of my lyrics that no one will ever listen to
Got diets full of newspaper and novels from the rest of you
Can't fight it all the waves
I can't fight it every day
No way

I ain't never waking up

We tried and tried we tried our best
Gettin ideas out there like fighter jets
Intents were good intents
And our hearts our minds were so intense
We groom our failure, groom our heads
Groom my mindset, give it breath
Made room and time for you to vent
Moved into new space, paid you rent

I don't wanna win a Grammy
I just wanna turn it up. Turn up
To you can't turn it up no more

I don't wanna fuck it up
Don't wanna break down your door
I just wish you would listen, listen
Even though it's me that I'm writing for

I keep spending all my money, I've been pouring all my dimes
Into learning how to tell you everything that's on my mind, so fine

And I ain't never waking up

I keep spending all my paycheck on ideas that I have
But I'm not ready to develop all the old ones that I had
So sad

I ain't never waking up

Write a novel. Fly away from the fam
I knew you had big dreams and visions but damn
Said we don't understand
Well we want to
I'm just trying to dig deep and hear about the things that haunt you
You push me out, and tell me that "Aww I got shit to figure"
Fool we've all got shit to figure
and sinker
So over here I'm gonna linger
Til you come to your senses and think bigger

I do shit alone until I'm reachin' out
And then I'm reachin' out to everyone that we forgot about
That's why we get food and shoot the shit
That's why you and I, our friendship is fruit to this

I could name names of all the kids who bought me French Fries when I was hungry
Kenny lent me money
JVB made my birthday a birthday
Helped me make art out of hardship and hurting
Why we feeling worthless? We all should worthful
Lesson from Eldaberry and Tony Turtle
All the friends around who told me how to put it together
Are the people that I will remember forever

My sister, alarming and charming, making moves
She does everything that she says that she'll do
See this my team and this my squad
My friends my friendships, every one of them a young God

Got love and a little hate
I'm allowed to make mistakes
I'm allowed to make mistakes
Say it hundred maybe thousand times
Nothin even seems to change

See, this my jam and this shit
I, I miss Pam and I miss Jim and
I miss home, I'm missin' it
I miss sunshine, I miss wind

And I'm never waking up

I don't wanna win a Grammy
I don't wanna blow up on Spotify
I don't wanna fuck it up
I don't want the music in my heart to die

I'm afraid of everybody but I'm always reaching out, I hope that
Someone takes the album, and they play it hella loud, real loud

And I ain't never waking
And I ain't
And I ain't never waking up