Ricky Don't Die

Hello?
Hold up, slow down
I can't hear you, what you mean Lil' Ricky stopped breathin;?
What d'you mean, "Fuck you, I'm leaving?"
Tell me where you're at, yo, I'll be there in ten
I ran every light, I ride with the wind
My homie only 12, his brother's my best friend
Last week we talkin' 'bout life in the making
And just last night I heard him on the phone hatin'

Laughin', makin' jokes 'bout his brother bein' broke
Goddamn Ricky, I never knew you smoked
Peer pressure from your friends, and that was it
Passed out high only after one hit
I'm swervin' through traffic, switchin' lanes, dodgin' whips
140K, drivin' down '36
I just left the plug in the trunk, there's a break
Plus you know I'm high, even a little lit

I won't slow down, all I see is lights
I can't think straight, I think I'm goin' blind
My mind isn't workin', can't even read the time
If little Ricky dies, I'll never be the same
I can't see his eyes, his smile is so wide
Ricky the real deal, he had such pride
And at age of 12 he already seen hell
Ricky's momma died only at the age of five

I was 13 and Lord did I cry
I just need a sign, God give me a sign
God please give me a sign
I, I, I really need a sign
I pray that Ricky lives and everything will be fine
You need to see the world, open your eyes
Stay alive for a while, smile one more time
Please, Ricky don't die, Ricky don't die!

Ricky don't die! (Ricky!)

I park the car on the side of the road
I ran into the hospital as fast as I could
I saw Jay sittin' there, cryin' and screamin'
Kickin' shit over, punchin' the air swingin'
I ran over to him but he pushed me back screamin'
Talkin' 'bout I'ma low life, sellin' crack
"Man it's your fault Ricky died right now"
"If he hadn't sold that Heroin he'd be okay"
Now what you mean?

I never sell to kids
"Yeah but you sold to Kelly and he sold it back in the back"
"Of a momma crib to a kid who knew Ricky"
"At a house party down by 15th at a buck fifty"
Fuck Kelly, I hit him up when I see him
I'ma find him, I'ma make him pay for this shit
I never knew he sold to kids, if you think I did
You think I'd give him shit now, I wouldn't give him shit

Doors open up, the doctor comes out
And blood on his gloves, his face lookin' down
Came right to us and didn't make a sound
And every footstep was shakin' the fuckin' ground
I couldn't make it out, it felt like the final round
In God's hands, and knocked a motherfucker out
He spit it out, "I'm sorry, we did everything we could"
"But Ricky didn't make it"

I couldn't take it
I started cryin' and started sayin', "What the fuck did you do?"
Expression went blank, sat down waitin'
Not knowing what to do as little brother died
I was the cause in a way, just wanted to cry
I heard sirens and lights flashing
Police officers comin' through the door crashing
When I looked at Jay he didn't look back, he ratted me out
I wasn't even mad 'cause I knew that I killed Ricky