But It Wasn't

Thought it was on but it wasn't
She wanted to invest but she didn't have the budget
I was doubtful, but no regrets for trusted
Countless wouldn't count the amounts that I've adjusted
A whole different vocab, spoken though it's clean
Seeming unfamiliar, awoken from a dream
Wouldn't even go back, chosen for the team
The moment might be Kodak but we know what it would mean
It was; clear as day, now settling in haze
Searching for a way, this perpetual of maze
And eventually it fades with lackluster urgency
As the ground rebuilds with more certainty
Wounds heal, even 3rd degree
Forgetting things that made her her to me
Dissipating back in a swirl of dreams
Now she's, like the rest of the world I see

This is life, full of unknowns
Making our way on the path we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
This is life, full of unknowns
Taking our place on the path that we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged

Thought it was on but it wasn't

Finishing my purge I was feeling disinfected
Fresh and introspective so we almost reconnected
My major fail with females, it left me so dejected
Looking back at these trails, none were this perfected
And we still email, like nothing really happened
Message in my inbox a sentiment collapses
Featherweight. I know you're great but pray tell
Try my best to fake well barely on these eggshells
Moving on was the first of these challenges
All along falling way below the averages
You made me what you hated, tipping all my balances
Well no you weren't the cause, but most certainly the catalyst
My body wanted out, my mind was full of avarice
To toughen up my soul I've covered it in callouses

I took it all in, I took it all in stride
Held in all inside now I'm emptying the ballastes

This is life, full of unknowns
Making our way on the path we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
This is life, full of unknowns

Taking our place on the path that we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
Thought it was on but it wasn't

On to the next gen, realized it sober
Figured out the closure understanding it was over
Timing's silver lining finding sweet inside the sour
Supported by a new source powering my hours
Over me, all this history will tower
But I'm done with all my fears, there's no time to be a coward
Last minute tickets as I'm boarding on this Boeing
Flight to LAX so for certain we were knowing
Happy to admit it, I knew that I was falling
Appreciated knowledge, and the things we had in common
You're so evident, clever quick, attractive
Planning for your path with a whole barrage of tactics

Studious with insight, thought we'd be a team
The perfect blend of qualities, something from a dream
Visits long distance, I really hadn't tried it
But it was theoretical, couldn't quite apply it

This is life, full of unknowns
Making our way on the path we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged

Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
This is life, full of unknowns
Taking our place on the path that we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
Thought it was on but it wasn't

Despite how it sounds, I've been feeling down – sacked
Plenty rebounds, but never bounced back
Come around? This is after that fact
Take you back? We've been down that path
Tell the truth of, I don't see a future
In any of my past so it's time for me to move up
That's it? No more need for proof of
That quick? Not just Saiyan but I'm Super
Last trip hot seat, no more of this pan fried
Rest in peace, David, back there is where that man died

Overwhelmingly it's the truth by a landslide
Nothing I can do, defeated with my hands tied
Fake it 'til I make it like a weather storm
Granted never take it metamorph into a better form
Learning from mistakes you can measure me
Nothing is for certain, let's go ahead and see

This is life, full of unknowns
Making our way on the path we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged
Sometimes nice even though it really wasn't
This is life, full of unknowns
Taking our place on the path that we chose
Sometimes smooth, sometimes rugged