Build Yourself

A familiar sound
Another slow collapse
I called home so I'd know
That I had somewhere to go

And I carried on
Like somehow they should be proud
There's this strength in their daughter
Come hell or high water
She will argue while she drowns

Like I was born into the feeling
I'd earned the right to act as though
We all might as well be quitters
And I'm the only one who knows
So my sense of truth is waning
Dragging right behind my pride
But losing feels so graceful
When I pretend my hands were tied

Now I'm back in that dream
Where I sat in the wrong seat
But somehow drove
Halfway to I don't know

And if they find me like this
Who's really gonna believe
This was not me, this was not me
I know I did it but it was not me

So now they're running diagnostics
On everything you'll ever have
"The system had potential but the wiring was bad
But our age is one of wonders
So let nothing get you down
We'll find another glitch that you can build yourself around"

You can scramble for an exit
When the world starts pouring in
You can give your life to God
But you will need it more than him
And you know that the wind is still gonna find you
And as the pressure starts to build
You can beat yourself to death out there, oh
Just by standing still