Catharsis

I heard what you said that night for sure
I don't want to get in my last word
I will say the truth as it comes to me
But I will never truly be free
Can you feel what you have done to me
Can you make an end of this catastrophe
I want the dog to have it all
I want it all to be gone
How do I explain what I'm feeling
I just want it all to be gone
How do I get myself rid of this feeling once and for all
I said, I don't want to be the reason that this is
I said, I don't want to be the reason for this disease

I am not gonna fall like all of those other times
I am not better than y'all even though I know that rhymes
I said, you can try and stop me again
But I'm just gonna say I still have my friend
But I know I don't, so I smoke up a dime
And I'll smoke it all night
You know I will
I'll feel a little bit better, but then still
I'll remember what I'm going through and let it all out
And you will hear the way that I am gonna yell
I will shout at the top of my lungs
I'll say everything's wrong
And know that that is why I am singing this song
'Cause I know that deep down inside
I just want to cry
I want to cry
And I will not let this be the reason why

I said I know that I'm stronger than I make myself out to be
But if I just keep going a little bit longer
It might just be the end of me
Do you trust what I am sayin'
Or do you think I'm insane
I got some thoughts in my head
Can you get them out my brain
I said I want to be alive
But I am feeling too much pain
So if you want me to survive
Please don't kick me off of this train
Don't kick me off
'Cause I am going somewhere where I won't get soft
I know that your heartache is mine
I'll see what, yes, I have yet to find
And that'll be the reason that I will come back for you
And that, oh, that is why
I am not alive today
Because I just give up, oh nay, oh nay
I am alive because I am what people call
Crazy