Regret

I'll be lost forever.
These words eternally etched into my skin.
All of the days that I spent wishing you would come back and be everything I've ever dreamed of
I am your creation.
Why don't you face what you brought into existence?
Don't be such a fking coward.

What have I done?
To push you away
Do you even remember the color of my eyes?
They're just like yours.
Look into my eyes
Have I become the monster you make me out to be?
This hell was created from misery.
And I'm afraid that the worst is yet to come.

You've taught me nothing, but the concept of quitting and being absent.
I hope you're proud of yourself and your fictitious contributions.
All my life I've been taken for granted.
I've let the venom flow through.
My body weakens.
There's nothing good left in me.
I'm fking putrid.

Punish me for my mistakes.
Please god
Take me away.

My demons are my brothers.
They are the only familiar face.
Unlike you they serve purpose
Remind me of you and all the things I don't wanna be.

These walls are now my comfort.
They have become my only escape.
I swear to god
It's the only way I can breathe.

What have I done?
To push you away
Do you even remember the color of my eyes?
They're just like yours.
Look into my eyes.
Have I become the monster you make me out to be?
This hell was created from misery.
And I'm afraid that the worst is yet to come.

Six feet deep
Buried by silence
This world has rejected the blood I've put in it.
My effort means nothing in this prison.
Forever stuck in this cage
Unable to turn the page and start a new chapter

I cannot escape this damn cycle
All regret repeats
Constant tragedy
Constant agony
Makes me question
When I will be able to live again

I cannot escape this damn cycle
All regret repeats
Constant tragedy
Constant agony
Makes me question
When I will live again