Relive

I can't give up on myself
There's more to life than this
There's more to this disgusting path that keeps me far from home
This time I'll do things right
Now I'm holding the knife
That once sat comfortably under my skin

This world cannot take what is left of me
I struggle to live but hope soon will set me free
Falling along the way only to serve as lessons learned

It's hard to rid yourself from the pain
That has had the chance to become part of you
The poisonous strands of this disease
Attach themselves to every strand inside of your body
And consume every living piece until you're barely alive

Memories of the past haunt you and infiltrate the wiring of your brain
Until all that is left is the ability to
Relive, regret, and repeat them constantly
You walk the earth searching for the antidote
An escape, like a wraith, awaiting faith
Impatiently scratching at the doors of silence

Then it leaves you hanging from a thread
And laughs as your attempts to breathe in life
Mimics a sucking chest wound
Ending in nothing but desolation, suffocation, aspiration
On the dark matter that you can't escape from

Bury me under the weight of the dreams you couldn't reach
Take it out on me
Stay with me, there's more to this than we can see
Take it out on me

Like holding fire to skin
Blistering heat begins to show who I've become
Melting away my mistakes
Only to drown in all that still remains

I have been tested beyond what I could ever take
I thought I'd never make
Make it out alive
But I'm still standing
Until I find the peace that I've been longing for

This world cannot take what is left of me
I struggle to live but hope soon will set me free
Falling along the way only to serve as lessons learned

Bury me under the weight of the dreams you couldn't reach
Take it out on me
Stay with me, there's more to this than we can see
Take it out on me