Shedding Stability

And I spent my days last summer hanging with my friends
Well that was when I felt just fine
I was never the one to free my mind up
With all this fucking stress
These anxious thoughts and walls of shame
They fill my brain
And I'm trying hard to change

And I spent my days this winter trapped inside my car
Cause "it's not safe to text and drive"
I can just roll around in my own fire
And never put it out
These flames repel the world away
And I think that that's okay
I don't think I'll ever change

And I think that you should know that I...
Still love you all the same
So don't think I'm not your friend
When I forget to make amends
I swear to god, I'm still trying
Don't think I'll let you go
These steps were made of slippery stones
But I swear to god, I'm still climbing
I swear to god, I'll never stop climbing

And don't think that I stopped caring
Cause I want the best for all of you
If you want it
And I hope that I'll stop staring at the unlikelihoods that face me
They're scaring away my logic
Well I don't want this

And we'd all refrain from picking up an object
That appear to be to heavy to handle
So believe me when I say
My head might appear to be as light as a feather
But I've bottled up so many sticks and stones
If you pick me up, it'll break your bones apart

And I spent my days last summer hanging with my friends
That was when I felt just fine
I was never the one to free my mind up
With all this fucking stress, these anxious thoughts
And walls of shame
They fill my brain

And I want to apologize
And I'm wondering why you're wondering why