Part 1: The Reason I Hate Sidewalks

I saw you walking on the sidewalk
With your hand in his
You had that look in your eyes
And that smile traced around your lips
It was the same look that you gave me while we sat in that parking lot
Where we talked about life and giving you & me a shot
Well it hit me so hard
The bullet's lodged inside my chest
Looks like in barely scraped the back of your soft gentle head
Now I'm hobbling along just to get this stitched back up
I didn't bring a pair of tweezers, I'll just live with this pain in my guts

Why did you become so numb
How can I become...

It feels like I haven't been genuinely happy in so long
Just a million years worth of thoughts crammed into a couple weeks
I wanted you to be the "you" in all my love songs
You chose to make it in these lyrics another way
And now everything reminds me of you

Whether its getting in my car or driving down the I-90
Or going back home and passing by North Street
Or going through Tim's, getting breakfast and coffee
Cause I can't sleep, I'm running on caffeine
Getting lost in the woods, and standing in cold creeks
Or staying inside, because I can't find my car keys
Or staring at the rain, because my brain feels like lightning
The thunder is quiet, but these thoughts are deafening
I'm listening to songs that you introduced to me
Or listening to songs that I'd sing to help you sleep
Or thinking of your face glowing up in my daydreams
As I lay awake wishing you were next to me
Or going to my job, with so much time for thinking
About my shift yesterday, where I couldn't stop thinking
About how much I miss you and how much I need you
And how much I need to get out of my fucking head

So when did you become so numb
I spend my days staring at my ceiling
Because nothing sounds appealing
So when can I become so numb
That I can say, I feel like living
And I can finally stop overthinking
So when did you become so numb
I spend my days staring at my ceiling
Because nothing sounds appealing