Sleep Paralysis (6am)

Slipping in white noise
Amplified by my choice
The music is tuning out
(In the background)
6 AM, the sun coming up
I still can't seem to sleep
The smell of incense
Will put me to rest
Awaiting unconsciously
(Slowly going to sleep)

The volume's at max yet it keeps me relaxed
Hopefully helping me
Stretching life weary with cherries at night
Briefly completing me
And pray that when I'm due my mind is on mute
It finally leaves me free

From thinking
Until sunrise
It's calming to not drown in thought
By sinking
Reflecting on life
It's calming to not think at all

I'm blissful this wishful night could continue on
Filling me with these dreams
Of euphoria, the journey of what
The eyes can't possibly see
No more nightmares not fearful of end
The flowers are gone but it's planted its seed

It's sinking
Until sunrise
It's calming to not think at all
From thinking
Reflecting on life
It's calming to not think it all

They've become
The creasing chrysanthemum
Releasing them as the sun
Hid in penumbral under
A blanket of stars
And the moon from afar

Waking up, not being able to move, pressure on the chest, and
Just feeling scared
Feeling super scared, waking up terrified
Like like there's a burglar in the house

That's like the whole sleep paralysis thing yknow that?
Yeah, but sleep paralysis is more, its something that you have
Yeah I'm just saying it kinda reminds me of it

Yeah but it definitely is, that is sleep paralysis
But it's um an issue that you have
It's an issue that you have yknow
It's something that you've had and you can't get rid of
That you're stuck in it
It's like every night you are stuck in this
"I can't get up but I'm awake but I can't move"

That's so scary because you are still in REM sleep
But you can open your eyes and are conscious of it
So it's like you can dream still and so you start seeing shit
And that sounds terrifying

It's fucking terrifying
And I've never got to the full extent of real sleep paralysis
I got to get a little taste of it and it's scary