The Next Day

It's been now three months
And day to day I think of what
The chances and statistics listing
What can happen to us
The fear that passing on left
Lasting thoughts said
What ifs leave me question just
Ice in a pack for
Knife in a back from
Life as a catalyst of just
Trust in fate revelations keep me shook
When I act as life is like a TV screen projecting me cuz in book
First person is always me and I'll be fine
Just write away my troubles and keep my mind sublime
And "goodbye ol friend" Facebook posts
From the peeps that hate you make me so
Bummed, I see them pass these halls and seek attention with their eyes it's like
They fake disguise for life
It's like they fake lies to fulfill life
They fake disguise for life
They fake disguise for life
But fuck em
Why keep close to the negatives
Guess out of sight means out of mind
And that's how I'll live
Imma find some way to pass the time
By writing rhymes in songs about this
Actually no, I'll write some other shit

Inside Routine Boutique is where you come to stay
You may feel a certain way
So please believe when I say
The next day does get easier
Inside Routine Boutique is where you come to stay
You may feel a certain way
So please believe when I say
The next day does get easier

Six months past and I've decided
I know what I'll write about
I mean I guess I've kinda already started
I'll show you how
Here's what I mean I've
Noticed my songs lately sound
Similar in theme it about
Him and her and me now
Subconsciously I've written my experience through
Storytelling I was guessing it wasn't about you
Song for a Halloween show at first but a story then grew
From Defib to Waiting Room to Tag to Noon
And what seemed like a one off story hid what I felt
And I continued to pursue with 4 more songs how I dealt
With 2016 I found the key to daydream
Now I need to give it back
It's time to leave Boutique
Maybe not, not ready to move on
And the product of that is this song
Sometimes we need to revisit this feeling to keep calm
I'mma count to three as I try to Breathe
And start to Sleep with a peaceful Dream
Thanatophobia a Relic of who I used to be
Was true to me about now
9 months it's May and I stress about how
The means to produce this in quality sound
But in a timely way you see I need it out you see that I've found
Count my blessings, remind myself my favorite colors
"If you start to freak out kid you know you got my number
My snap" it's bummer last summer had such a grip on peeps
We leave Boutique so why complain like "Woe is me"

Inside Routine Boutique is where you come to stay
You may feel a certain way
So please believe when I say
The next day does get easier
Inside Routine Boutique is where you come to stay
You may feel a certain way
So please believe when I say
The next day does get easier

Today is August 12th 2017
Looking at the clock see that it's 12:03
I've isolated myself to write this verse for me
Take a moment to Breathe before I start to Dream
And I've now realized that since I've been lucid
It's given me the tools to start to loosen by choosing
The steps and the breaths I take from
Chest to air awake or snoozing
Don't fret about the time you losing unloosen
Wrote Qs in a box and called it songs
When I felt confused
And looking back it had a hand in
Helping out my mood when
Asthma attacked and sleep paralysis
Then clouded you
No place for blame you chased a learning point of view
Now it's 3AM and I look back at my biggest fears
Thanatophobia made appearance throughout the year
And though at moments I notice that phobia reappears I
Know philosophy a way of thought that makes things crystal clear
It's out of my control
It's out of my control
Tengo que decir a mi corazón que no tienes
Que tener ni un razon miedo de sol
And if the sun through many years decides to move
And if the dam breaks many years too soon
And if the cloud bursts thunder in your ear
And if the moment comes the thing you most fear
It's alright
You had a positive life
6AM is wailing by
I'm reminiscing how I
Couldn't simply slip in sleep
But now it's easy tonight
In fact I used an alarm
To wake up, remind
But fell asleep again
And realized it's nine

Inside Routine Boutique is where you come to stay
You may feel a certain way
So please believe when I say
The next day does get easier

And if I look back at that Relic all those years ago
I now realized it's just the past it's clear
Yet time and time again it seems to reappear
But it's been dwindling since then a shrinking fear
Ooh that Relic from the past
At times it's nowhere to be seen
Ooh that Relic from the past
At times it reappears in me
But I promise
The next day does get easier
The next day does get easier
The next day does get easier
The next day does get easier