Facing My Demons

Why do I feel like I gotta be somebody that the world wants me to be?
I was crazy, I was losin' it
Cocaine in my body, I'm abusin' it
I'm gettin' fucked-up on Percocet
I just received a call, it was a death threat
If I gotta die today and there ain't no other way
But shootin' me down then
Puttin' me up in the grave then I'ma face it

Look the shooter in his eyes
The one who can save me, is the Man in the sky
The one pullin' the trigger is the devil in disguise
For my children's sake, I'm tryna be alive
I'm a beast in the streets, I know how to survive

All my life I been doubted
Will I see 25? I doubt it
Rolls-Royce, bitch just know I just bought it
I just wanna be the man for my fam
I been through pain, I walk in the the rain
I look at my reflection up in the mirror
And I can admit that I feel so ashamed

I've done some dirt that I cannot forget
I'm wipin' the blood, I'm wipin' my sweat
The reason I killed him 'cause he posed a threat
I got some sons and I got a daughter
You playin' with me, there's gonna be a slaughter

I don't wanna live my life like this no more
I don't wanna sell this dope
The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid
I don't know what I'ma do
I'ma be a gangster forever
Ain't no love in the streets
And I don't trust you

I'm facing my demons
That evil, I've seen it
The money, the root of all evil, believe me
You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill
Every time I need paper, this is the way that I feel

My brother told me do it for my nephew
Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue
One thing I know for certain
Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

My brother told me do it for my nephew
Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue
One thing I know for certain
Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

I'm trying to change my life for the better
If I go to prison, would they write a letter?
Would they even care, if I wasn't there?
It feels like I got haters everywhere
Haters, suckers, motherfuckers
I was built like no other
It's a cruel world, they criticize your skin color

Mobbin', robbin', homicide for something that makes them feel alive
But I'm always curious to find out where I'ma go when I die
People hate me all the time, but they ain't even met me yet
I was born to win in last, so that ain't nothin' I'ma sweat

I came up off of sellin' that dope
Have you ever had the cops break down your door?
Have you ever had the cops put you on the floor and rob all of your dope?
No, you don't know, how that feels
You're totally broken and ready to kill
You're praying to God
Asking for a deal, "O Lord, I can't afford a meal"
I just want to go legit, I just feel like a piece of shit

I don't wanna live my life like this no more
I don't wanna sell this dope
The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid
I don't know what I'ma do
I'ma be a gangster forever
Ain't no love in the streets
And I don't trust you

I'm facing my demons
That evil, I've seen it
The money, the root of all evil, believe me
You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill
Every time I need paper, this is the way that I feel

My brother told me do it for my nephew
Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue
One thing I know for certain
Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

My brother told me do it for my nephew
Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue
One thing I know for certain
Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you