Once Again

I'm lying in bed once again
Choking the pillow with that sweet familiar sorrow
Of a dozen broken hearts and fickle matters
In a battle between the lonely and the picky

And I'm high once again
My mind reflective of the emptiness inside
To the point where all that I can do is stare
And try to imagine you there

Last night I dreamt of you
Your hand was on my face
You pulled me closer and you whispered
Darling won't you wait

And I obey
As you tell me to stay
And you walk off with another man to lay

And as you leave
A little part of me realises that you and him
You were always meant to be
And there's no need for me

So we part
Our hearts intertwined
The connection forced to die because of one thing
And that's time

Here's to the last syllable of recorded time

But time salvages the night
On this park bench I reside
Let my surroundings dissolve me
Darling I'm fine

So stop asking
Stop asking why

And I'm running out of excuses as to why this keeps happening to me
Another place
Another time
Another world, but another me

Cause I need to let go of you and some other things too

Like the anxieties that float above me
The girls the broken relationships that define me
And the lies and the trust issues I've built up over the years
Always wanting to run when something serious is near

But sometimes my mind defeats the fears
And that's when love
Requited or not
Is near