We Left You Behind

I heard he can walk today
The steps they don't reach far but they have
Such an impact

And I heard he can talk today
He slips and stumbles over words but darling
Don't we all sometimes

I heard that he's 1 today
My nephew's growing up I'm sorry but I had to miss your first birthday
I'll see you some other birthday

And I did too much today
But we have so little time and I kinda want to see you soon too
Before I reside, before I reside

I try to take it in my stride but activities collide
And I miss something that used to bloom inside
Maybe ambition?
Or the drive

Sometimes I feel like letting go
When you say go I'll push the pedal
Until we forget that we're growing old
And time is passing us by

To the left by the sea
Darling won't you look at me

Cause I'm a little bit confused as to where I should go
Cause people around me are dying but I'm still focused on my own

Obsessive thoughts and misplaced love
Battered bruises I still think of
When I'll get laid and who I'll love
Or if she's into me at all

But it's all so fucking meaningless
These mortal little things upon which I obsess

And I'd just like to say
That he
He didn't deserve to pass away

But I guess that I'll stay

In the driver's seat
While we proceed to
Sway and swallow road and miles and fantasies
And fantasies

Of distant shores and oh darling in 10 years I'll be yours
Cause I guess that life passes you by and
Life and death are intertwined by words
And oh so depressive vibes

We left you behind

And that's fine
That's fine