Ripoff

Man I broke a lot of hearts
Slammed a lot of doors
Left a lot, I mean a lot of blood out on the floor
Of all these shitty bars
They made me feel at home
Just 'cause the liquor
Was the only love I'd ever known
If I was really real
I would've told you that
I never managed to get over these panic attacks
But if I showed the world
That I was just a man
They'd know that I could still be beaten
But they'd need a hand
Boy I'm just having fun
At least until I die
I said I loved her when I didn't
Why the hell'd I lie
'Cause I was so afraid
Of dying alone
The end is still the only thing I'll be on time for

If I was an ass I'm sorry
If I ignore your text just call me
Wish I could say more
But it feels like I'm running out of time
And if you need a ride I'll be there
Probably be late but I'll be there
Barring the unseen hand of fate
To provide some peace of mind

I've heard it said that no one ever really leaves
But I don't know if I still believe that
So I drank until I couldn't see
How could I let it get the best of me
She could see that I was gonna die
Maybe not tonight but I don't wanna lie
Until I can make just a little time
It'll fade every time I close my eyes
I was the right man, wrong time
Got committed to the wrong side
But the other side they are like me
They are not me
But they really seem to like me
And if I ever see that man again
I'd probably like to shake his hand
Because he showed me what the bottom feels like
Now I feel like everything is alright

But if I was an ass I'm sorry
If I ignore your text just call me
Wish I could say more
But it feels like I'm running out of time
If you need a ride I'll be there
Probably be late but I'll be there
Barring the unseen hand of fate
To provide some peace of mind

I never got to say that I'm sorry
It's probably too late but I'm sorry
Even though I should let you know
You still ain't no friend of mine
And now that I can breathe in the smooth air
Quietly I see things so clear
He who controls his own fall from grace
Will control the afterlife