Note to Self (Outro)

I was dropping seeds till the rain came
You just hypin tryna rush into the damn fame
Half of what I wrote was inside a note
I stretched a suicide letter into 15 songs
It was all okay until the shade hit
Until I took my first drink and got addicted
A dip shit
A young misfit
Your perception you was on the same elixir
Part of the same religion
You lost your worth in living
Ya momma lost her job
Ya cousin sellin' dope
Ya uncle tryna raise ya cause ya daddy wasn't there
You told yourself that life might ever end up bein' fair
Until you took ya last breath within ya nightmares
But lemme tell you sum young boy
If you always try a fall asleep
How da hell ya gonna chase ya dreams
How da hell you gonna help yo peers
Same h20 inside ya cup I had it too
I had to get up off it
Removed the single portion
I ain't an activist these aqueducts is never clean
But I wish I never lost my mind
I wish I never lost my girl
I wished you never crossed your heart
I wish you never hoped to die

All this pain
Is calling my name
And the rain is harder to bear
And I see the pain in yo eyes
Lemme tell you that I was once there
DMT is all in my brain
I know death might be calling yo name

People say that depression is not a real thing
They been dealin wit it themselves thats a damn shame
So what they lyin' for
Same reason that these rappers out here rapping for
I ain't tryna get a check to feel my fuckin voids
Till each verse make you paranoid you'll hear my voice
I gotta problem with contraptions
Movements without action
Earth revolve around me let me cop me a protractor
Boi I need to quit it
I might need to split it
A single cantaloupe will never feed a whole village
But the river's poisonous
You take a cup your bound to end up like they do to flint and dem
And I ain't got time for oppression, fight for mine I guarantee
I bear my teeth at those with bottles tryna drown us in they sea
I see the pigmentation I'll embrace my thirst
They love my death more than they hate my birth
I love my life more than I love them too
We all die but they gon die too
Bury me with a hard dick too
Middle fingers on my grave for the cops that kilt
But I was dropping seeds till the rain came
You just hypin tryna rush into the damn fame
Half of what I wrote was inside a note
I stretched a suicide letter into 15 songs
And this aint a physical substance
This be dat metaphor for the mental mind's consumption
This be dat school shooter when white he had did nun
This be daat gentrify yo whole neighborhood for some yogurt
This be that beat yo child for labels given by teachers
This be that teach yo daughter that niggas are never shit
This be that teach yo son that these bitches are all conniving
This be that teach yo kids to get money and go to college
This be that they'll shut up when the presidents face is black
Adopted politics and we watched the racists react
And yeah it's all nice while we sitting back all relax
Too my community was it worth it to stop the fight
Till they give a tyrant office who putting us ten years back
Black water