Confidence

Compliments
Where are the Compliments
None ever come through
Lack of CONFIDENCE
Lord when am I Do
Its time I let out the truth
Tearing up in the booth
It all started in youth
Before the fairy took my tooth
In return for change
Guess she never knew
The type of change she brought wasn't that to arrange my thoughts
Rather tho the Angel soute
To offer me opportunity
Until 19 that was news to me
At six I'd cry to my granny
15 quit my job
Consider this my speech at the grammies
This is something that has to
Be addressed
Like when it's for family
The truth has to be confessed
Even if the consequence
Is that of arrest
Sometimes change
Comes in the form of a mess
Yet the preachers call it
Being blessed

Experienced my first rejection at 16
That's how long it took for me
Then another four years later
Who knew I'd be dating models
And afford all these bottles
When jumping for women
Was my only problem
Listen
It took 20 years me to call y'all
To all the women ballin
The attention deficiency in y'all eyes
Could've already called it
That's the fucking problem
We can hold a fake smile better than a real one
Let me list reasons
Trust is hard to come by
Honesty tends to be a lie
Then you get cheated on
Then you agree upon
Blaming yourself
Then you turn to that poison
Which feels bottomless
Then the comment sense
Loses its presence
And the burner
Is held by anonymous
You regret the decisions
Caused by incompetence

All due to a lack of confidence

Cause of the expression
On people's faces
Makes it hard for me
To go to places
Innocent till proven guilty
Keep building up the cases
Until cloudy days
Become vacant
My advice Is
To find happiness
Avoid negative ambient
Get lit on what they cure cancer with
Its as easy as not giving a shit
Once a topic I struggled with
I'm proud to admit
I'm ready to work on my confidence