Escape

Started with the spark
To kickstart a life of addiction
Everyday is dark
If only life was fiction
That would explain the dark cloud
Of always needing validation
Blame it on myself
Self infliction
I feel as the most important one
Speaking through narcissism

Contradiction

These are lessons brought on to me
By a false reality
A negative environment
I'll give you the evidence
To prove we're living a simulation
I can enhance my day to day
Juice up
Spruce up
Whatever you wanna say
Listen
Let me clarify
Do you think working a job
That may aswell pay minimum wage
After all the taxes paid
Receive my cheque
And if life is a game
I'm the player being played
I can't afford rent
I can't afford food
Bills, not even a dent
Tension gets intense
Can't even afford a fucking date with my boo
Now what's that tell you

Walk out the doors
To walk into more problems
At home
Nothing ever seems to solve em
Now my girl is mad
Now my mood is sad
And my mind wonders off
To the one cure I have
(Drugs, Liquor)
Back to stepping out again
Just getting groceries Love
Nah
It's an excuse
She already knows what imma do
Driving again
Wonder if she knew I'm intoxicated
A defence mechanism
Its called evading
Wonder if she's worried if I made it
You know that feeling
When you regret your words
Shouldn't have said it
Maybe if I wasn't promoted I wouldn't
Couldn't contain myself
Certain buttons pushed
I lash out
Wonder if I decided to...
Mentals all emptied out
Stop the car
Pull the henny out
Say hi to Mary
If sucking on a Jane
Fogs up my brain
That's how emotions are contained
Consider this my campaign
Before the hook
Call me captain

I'm an addict
I understand that
What y'all don't understand
I never planned that
Can barely stand
Until I'm uplifted
Light the medicine in my hand
Float off the land
Now I'm in a position
Fear, time, pain doesn't exist
I've found the substitution
The solution
To clear my minds pollution
Rather exist in an illusion
Than live as a robot always moving
Proving for what
Doing for what
I'm sitting at the park
Staring at the sky
Four hours gone by
I chose not to be syllabalistic
I just want you to get it
I've found an escape
I've found an escape
I've found an escape



Credits
Writer(s): Carie Lynn Vejvoda
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