Mother

Somewhere far away there is nothing there, nothing there
Everything stays in day when I left our nest, is it fair?
I know, that you never have and never will let me down, oh
You are not alone

Ah-ah, when we left those days behind
I just keep on wondering why...

The day I left the skies were grey
I was asking why it has to be this way
Far from my home, far from my city
The streets full of dirt have never looked so pretty
I hopped on a plane, travelled twelve hours
To find myself locked in a big white tower
Guarded by dragon, whose tongue was unknown
But I kept shit together, I carried on
And while I was there, I looked for support
Which the one I loved just could not afford
So I turned to my friend who was there for me
And my heart just said: "She's the one you need"
I acted like asshole I know that myself
But we're free to chose unlike cubs kept in cells
I made my decision like real men do
I'm one of them, trust me, there's just left a few
After that for a year you've been pointing for me
That I am all wrong, that I cannot see
Well for that I can say that you'll never know
There're mothers who leave their children alone
It all seemed alright, they brought them to life
But probably something just struck their minds
So they turned away, they left them for good
Forever they'll wear tag "misunderstood"
Though it's not an end, the kids they get rich
They make it all big, they take the high pitch
They live their lives, they move past it all
Working so hard to reverse the fall
So what I am saying is don't judge so fast
Give it some time, let it digest
You'll see it's alright, you'll see myself rise
Are all of this quarrels worth biggest surprise?

Ah-ah, when we left those days behind
I just keep on wondering why...

After long enough days and dark enough nights
I made it back home, to my city's lights
I breathed the fresh air, I liked the cold
But then there was something that I haven't known
Our house turned to dungeon, and dragon was there
It was even scarier, as scary as death
I questioned myself how it got this way
I locked myself out but didn't know how to pray
So I was just running, it's music and me
I was so damn scared, just wished to be free
But day after day I just went back again
Watching you suffer, watching your pain
And I couldn't save you, I couldn't change shit
I was trying my best to stay on my feet
But few times I failed - no one's to blame
Will you believe me? I was just drained
It has nothing to do with anyone else
It's me and the dragon and feelings I felt
He spit at me fire, burning my skin
Making me see what you've already seen
It was just so depressing knowing that you
Went through these motions each day you knew
You couldn't fight dragon and no one was there
To help you get out cause no one else cared
That's why I failed, that's why I cried
Not because dragon wanted to fight
So don't blame me mama, it's not about me
It's all about you, that's all it is
And now home is shattered, but wasn't it before?
We are all victims, but we're not alone
So let's stick together but not separate
Things that have happened - this is our fate

Somewhere far away there is nothing there, nothing there
Everything stays in day when I left our nest, is it fair?
I know, that you never have and never will let me down, oh
You are not alone

Ah-ah, when we left those days behind
I just keep on wondering why...

So now we are here, it's been a long run
I'm back in the tower but dragon is gone
This place feels much better, I love it a lot
This cancerous heat and air full of smoke
Why is it so good? I don't know for sure
I've got a disease, this land is my cure
I don't want to leave, I just want to stay
A home far from home, so far away
I know it might hurt you, I'm sure it will
I'm just tryin' to show you all that I feel
I'm dead on the inside, I want back my life
I'm scared of depth, I don't want to dive
I'm scared about sister, she's tired, I know
And what about brother, he's a long way to go
I wish I could help them and also help you
But I am so lifeless, I can't even move
Please don't hate me mama, my love will go on
I just need some time, I need to get strong
But until that time it's all in your hands
I can't choose for you, I cannot amend
It's been a long letter, been writing for month
I can't do it longer, I'll go for a run
A thousand words, and all of them bite
Remember you said once: "I wish I knew what's inside"?
Well, here is your answer, it's hard to accept

But that's what about all the nights spent unslept
I hope we will listen to this song years from now
Smiling and laughing, cause we've overcome
We will overcome, we will overcome
We will overcome, we will overcome
We will overcome

Somewhere far away there is something there, something there
Nothing is back in day when I left our nest, it's so clear
Still I know, that you never have and never will let me down, oh
You are not alone

Ah-ah, when we left those days behind
I just keep on wondering why...
I changed my mind