No One Around Me

Scream much louder, just don't scream too loud

I don't feel like I be doing anything productive
I been making all them songs, but I never seem to love it
Pouring all the feelings, all emotions to the lyric
It's reminding of all them and why I always fear it
Trying to ignore the problem and it always works
But I know that they be stacking up, hit it where it hurts
I be feeling tired but I'm getting plenty sleep
Cause the mind is really heavy, need the feelings to delete
I been working too much on the songs, need a nap
Every day has been the same, with anxiety attacks
Trying to reach out but the mind will not allow me
I been trying to call for help, but there ain't no one around me
I been going through the motions, they been all the same
Through the days, nothing change, I'm the only one to blame
Isn't you, it is I, trying get inside the scene
When I'm hitting up the mail, but my letter's never seen

Ain't no one around me cause I'm still inside this hole
Not escaping my surroundings like a fish inside a bowl
There's a lot to worry when you're going through the facts
I been feeling overwhelmed cause I just went through two attacks
Let me also tell you that my mind is really fragile
When I'm trying to recover, process feeling like a battle
If one thing is going wrong, then you lose momentum
I be losing the control, then it's harder to defend em
I need my alone time when I want recovery
Using up the music as a shield, it could cover me
Please don't be around me when I'm trying to recover
I might just explode in front of you, one after another
Let it out, do not keep it in, let it out
Ain't no better feeling when the tension getting out
Do not call for help, ain't nobody here that knows how
I would only know cause I been making up a flow now

Thought I would be feeling better when I finished up
But then I was feeling nothing, like I never fixed up
That just shows I got to change the purpose why I'm making them
Why would I be making them when maybe I be faking them?
Fuck 'em all, I don't what I be doing now
Everything that I be doing ain't no deal that make me proud
Every path that I be taking, I would quit 'em
Never am I walking down the same path, never get 'em
Finding out the reason to continue finish up
Got to tell the story when I figured out and lit 'em up
This is my story, this is all about the mind
That be always playing games, with the answers that I find
You are not alone, there are many people round you
I would fucking hate when they be staying that, it's worse
I am sure that other people have it harder than you
Shut the fuck up right now, that is not how this works
This is crowned ruler, this the story of the king
Who was weak, who was lost, he was losing everything
This is crowned ruler, this is why I'm all alone
In the mind, in the head, they just took away the throne