Ghost

I keep stayin' up too late
I'm kinda tired and I don't feel so great
Where's the boy who lived in your skin?
I think somebody came and took him
Please bring him back cause I miss him
Maybe he was never there, to begin with
He was a ghost that I imagined
My brain made up to cope with my habits
Guilt weighs me down more than anything
Songs of remorse pour out of my seams
Wish I could kiss you one last time
Even if I'm never yours and you're never mine
I was hell-bent on destroying what we had
And I'm terrified you'll never want me back
I always knew that you would leave
So I pushed until you never wanted to see me
If I knew that was the last time I'd see you
I never would've yelled at you
I think somebody died that day
I think it was both of us in a way
I hope she treats you the right way
Maybe she can make you stay
But I hope it's hard kissin' her
I hope that in your mouth the taste of mine still burns
You can never love me the same again
And I'll never get to sleep in your bed
I want this all to be over
But I'm a ghost too and you want to be able
To hold her