Myndfxxk

First of all what you need to know about the mind
Of a stubborn, selfish, sociopath it's undefined
Having dark visions, evil living, trying to end the life I'm given
In my past left all my sinning, praying father for forgiveness
I try to live with the angels all in my life
But I still seem to sleep with these demons like every night
Everything that I'm dreaming is something I know it cannot be
That same old fucking shit is coming back like triple two times three
It be like Hey Sin, why you fucking with J
Can't you see that kid he's messed up in dangerous ways
Put the gas to the flame like he's ready to raze
Maintain in this rap game, shoveling pain
Sometimes can feel like you're moving too fast
Gotta slow down, take a step back
Reevaluate and adjust your path
Catch a little break before it all crash
So many beaten broken damaged, put myself together dammit
Never gonna understand it, that's the life that I've been handed
Step up in the booth to give myself some therapy
And even if nobody get's it, I know it's still helping me

What I need to know about is shit that I can't understand
Get it, why it's so important, hands upon that master plan
So many out there fake, y'all know the dam deal
Took me way too long to figure out the ones that's real
But I grew up, got a little older, little colder
brush that chip off of my shoulder, now these stones have grown to boulders
Still can't look at reflections in the mirror
Blow all of the smoke away to see a little clearer
Realize I had a vision, decipher the indecision
Recommit to my mission, make all of you fuckers listen
To the wordplay twisting, it's written with such precision
Calling down the rabbit hole cuz I'm seeing in tunnel vision
Sometimes can feel like I'm moving too fast
Gotta slow down, take a step back
Reevaluate, adjust to new paths
Take a little break before I just crash
And if I ever let you in to everything I ever thought
You'd probably go and run away, so really what's the pointless cost
This is what I do to try to get some therapy
I put my soul upon the line for everyone of y'all to see