Excuses

Another day of the greyness
Yet the sun it burns my skin
Another day of this pointless routine
In which I don't fit in

Oh you're just hungry and tired and lonely
Yeah it's just circumstance
You're not unhappy yeah you should be grateful
That you are so good at

Making up excuses
And putting on this mask

Another night of the restlessness
Must be due to the stress
Cause I bottle up my feelings and then and then and then
Light another cigarette

You don't share anything with anyone anymore
And then you drown in your own thoughts
But of course there is no correlation
Oh you're just scarred

But I can show you if you like
I can try and let you in
Don't get scared along the way though
Cause I really need this win

I really need this win

Today I couldn't find a purpose
Of being at all
So I thought of taking my own life
But that's a selfish and easy thought

You won't admit that you're head over heels for her
Cause that makes you vulnerable
And it'd be a shame if you felt something for once now wouldn't it
Let go of this barrier

Let go of this anxiety
Cause it's okay to hurt and to love
And feel just to figure out
What's made up and what's real

What's real