Eighteen

I turned eighteen this May
I remember being seventeen like it was yesterday

I haven't got my license, because I'm afraid of driving
But I can make a cookie in a mug - I'd call that thriving
From joy to tears, a lot can happen in a year

I turned eighteen this May
I remember being seventeen like it was yesterday

I'm unreasonably stressed about college and the future
I clench my jaw at night so hard I make marks in the mouth guard
That I got to keep my jaw in place
and keep my teeth from grinding away

I turned eighteen this May
I remember being seventeen like it was yesterday

I'm unreasonably excited about college and the future
I just can't wait to see what happens next for
me and for the ones I love and for my country;
Despite challenges, oh change is on the way

I turned eighteen this May
I remember being seventeen like it was yesterday

I still don't know how to be a grownup,
but I'm learning, and I think I'll be okay;
I'll need some help along the way, but one day
I'll learn to make my bed and set
appointments, maybe even wear matching socks

Some days, my anxiety disorder makes me
feel like I should be labeled "out of order."
But I know I'm getting better every day;
I found hope in the dark that I've kept from slipping away

I turned eighteen this May
I remember being seventeen like it was yesterday

I already have a tattoo. Cigarettes don't interest my throat
But maybe I'll buy a lottery ticket, and baby I can't wait to vote

Will I always be a kid, or have I been grown up since age nine?
I guess I can call myself an adult, I suppose that legally I'm mine

I turned eighteen this May
I turned eighteen this May
I turned eighteen this May
I turned eighteen this May