cancer and birth defects

I keep on having these dreams where I think I'm awake
They always end with me dying
Waking up with sweat pouring down my face
I think I'm probably just stressed, I got a lot on my mind
So guess I'll keep on dying
Until I sort out my mind

And I've already watched
Everything that's been recommended to me on Netflix
So I bought a subscription to Hulu
But their shows aren't ad-free
And I got an email from Comcast
Telling me to stop torrenting Rick and Morty season three
Because it isn't online

But here we are still standing tall
Explain to me why I still even care at all
Hide your face and I'll take the blame
Pretending you don't even recognize my name
But I know you do and you do too

And I'm so sick and tired of just waiting around
And hoping this could all get better before I hit the ground
Thinking if there isn't more to this
Then what's the point of doing it?
And what the fuck is meaningful if everything is meaningless?
'Cause if I go to college, I'll give up my life for knowledge
So I think I'll just stay poor and free and stay up late watching TV

But here we are still standing tall
Explain to me why I still even care at all
Hide your face and I'll take the blame
Pretending you don't even recognize my name
But I know you do, yeah, you do too