B.P.D

Aye aye aye I'm fucking toxic
Way too many problems, now I'm pouring like faucet
Drowning in my sorrows, slowly losing all my logic
Maybe its the reason why I'm feining for narcotics
Sorry to my baby trynna save me from my nonsense
Sorry to my momma for my drama couldn't stop it
Think about it way too much I think about it often
Never beat this shit before I quit I'll buy my coffin
Sad truth is that I'll end up all alone
The saddest fucking truth is that I did this on my own
I know I'm on this road and I'll be stuck up in this zone
Until the day I fucking drop just leave my body and my soul
In the dirt for what is really worth
Just know I did my best, but I just left it in a mess
When it's time I'll cop my nine
And bust nine shots right out my chest
And maybe then I can get little rest
I see the signs of my decline and in my mind I ain't alright
I need to fight, but have no might I pray I die I see the light
I lost my friends I lost my fam I lost the one that was divine
I lost everything I ever truly loved in my life
Why do I even do this to the people show me love
I am the evil menace but I'm coming from above
I tried to make it right, but it just ends up in a fight
I guess I ain't the guy and all the stress you can't deny
I got the B.P.D in me it's getting clearer can't you see
I can't be free I need to bleed I need to be the things you need
For me to see I'm nothing neat I run no team I drive no beam
I chase no dreams I do my thing I run my mouth and hurt you bad
I can't believe in disbelief I cant conceive no damn relief
I'm at the edge I'm about to jump you know I got it bad
I want release I need the peace I need to feast up on this
Bitch you say you want to leave
I know I really understand why