Detoxify

This mind probe leeches onto me like the growing flood, underneath my thoughts
Devouring my senses, impairing them
Telling me what I'm missing

The more that I just try to push it out
The more I feel myself collapsing
Why am I back at this again
I've been over this
More than it can ever be
Good for me

Let me check (No!)
One more time (No!)
Wanna know if I'm still alive
This feeling of having this restraint
Will fake my own death

I cannot breahte, I cannot think
I don't recognize myself
Maybe I should give in again
Will that be my salvation?

In time we'll see
Who will win this Tug of War?

To win or lose
Won't mean the same
And I'm to blame
For not trusting myself
What part can't I, ever understand
That it's all up here

In time we'll see, what's so wrong with my
Fragile soul, born from these feelings
Emerging to replace what's left in my shell
It's lurking in the depths
Never to be truly asleep
Befalling me, binding me, controlling me
Like a hurricane, pass into the eye and despair

In my own darkness
I slowly begin to lose my mind
Fear became my only fear
I will break
Help me