Misfire

From the depths, the Harbinger resurrects
Tapping my shoulder, to remind me of my pain
Spreading out to nest under my skin
For how long will I live in this lie

This is my intuition
Forced into my submission

Shake me awake from my daydreaming by forgetting to be esteeming
After all I tried to do to not stagnate, I recall how it felt the last time
Feelings I dare not to oppose
It takes the greatest courage to dive into abyss

I fear the void
The clock is ticking backwards

All the memories of my success
The bitter roots of my confidence
At the crossroad they must survive
Will I turn right
Will I turn left
Future regret is waiting to haunt me

Til this day I
Remember when
I tried to leave my insecurities behind
Til this day
I carry on to scare them off

This raging fire threatens to die out
But the growing flood lurking underneath my mind
Attempts to drown me, despite my faith
This war will never end

From the depths, the Harbinger resurrects
Tapping my shoulder, to remind me of my pain
Spreading out to nest under my skin
Am I still living in a lie
The Harbinger carries on
Tapping my shoulder to remind me of my pain
I try to wake from the lie
The battle was lost before it began

Now I have become scared of my future and what it holds for me
The good and bad, it scares the shit out of me
And when it
All turns out to be just fine
Then I just know
The same cycle will repeat quite soon enough

Can't let it go

I'm scared of my future and what it holds for me