Illusion of Control

Flip the pillow, nudge your head
Time to leave this quiet bed
Start the day with good mistakes
Say a prayer for things that break
Sailing like a queen across a sea of broken blades

The cards said you'd be down on your luck
This year and the year after that
All your notebooks getting stuck shut
Tripped up, landing flat on your back

But you just made your coffee and clocked into work
Tried your hardest not to be a fucking jerk
Ran your hands over your head and didn't cry
Acted like you didn't know you couldn't lie
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Work your magic, move your feet
Let them try to make you eat
Give the bad love leave to go
Watch the rain become the snow

You broke yourself against a wall
And broke the wall and knocked the house down
Lay beneath the rubble like all
You could do was wait to be found

Well, did you know that you're my fucking heroine
I just watched your heart decide to shed its skin
And i don't know how much of you it's gonna take
Maybe lifetimes, i refuse to speculate

Beneath the illusion of control
Is nothing but an endless fall
And of course we're tired and of course we're ill
And of course we wish we could claw and kill
But you dove down where you could be still
And see the hole you had to fill

Look at your blood
Look at your face
I'm so in love
With what you've made

You made tea and you made room
Didn't even know for whom
Swept the floor and made things nice
No such thing as the same river twice