Walk Away

I keep living in the darkness
Oh, the past is in the past, I try to catch myself to keep it in the past
I don't wanna keep running (Don't want)
I just want my feet on the ground to walk away from the darkness

I've been living in the darkness for way too long
Maybe the light isn't where I belong
These days I'm a pro at finding the cons
I feel so alone like I'm the only one
Every night I pray, help me escape God
He better come quick, cause I can't go on for long
When the guy at the cemetery mows the lawn
Does he think of the stories he cuts under the sod?
Just hold on, Holden, don't give up
This bad dream will end, one day you'll wake up
You'll fill your cup, you'll meet true love
You'll feel the glory, you'll rise above
The hatred and pain you felt in this chapter
No tears from disaster, just tears from the laughter
I only wish that I could make pain go faster
Until then I'll just rap through the rapture

You know over the last few years
I've been facing some of the toughest demons of my life
But I realize
That the only way to escape is to walk away

I keep living in the darkness
Oh, the past is in the past, I try to catch myself to keep it in the past
I don't wanna keep running (Don't want)
I just want my feet on the ground to walk away from the darkness

I wanna see a light, I wanna be elite
I tell haters to shoo, cause I hate defeat
I'm tired of hate, pain, fear, and deceit
But when I close my eyes, it follows me in my dreams
I'm on one foot, bout to fall off the beam
Crying so many tears, fill up a stream
People are staring at me when I scream
Like they weren't the ones who did this to me
Wake up in the morning, I got murder on my mind
I'd never kill a friend, just me, myself, and I
Most days, I feel like a dead man inside
Would anyone even be sad if I died?
Lay me to rest, my body's a carcass
No one can save me, it's too late regardless
What did I do to make you all act heartless?
Just wish I could walk away from the darkness

December 2018
I came face to face with death
Closest I've ever been
I tried running myself off the road
Ya know, I'm still here
It's taught me to be a lot more thankful for the things I have
But I still haven't escaped the darkness

I keep living in the darkness
Oh, the past is in the past, I try to catch myself to keep it in the past
I don't wanna keep running (Don't want)
I just want my feet on the ground to walk away from the darkness

Walk away from the darkness, Walk away from the darkness
I just want my feet on the ground to walk away from the darkness
Darkness, ooh, oh