I'm Gone

Yeah

Yeah, everyday's a battle
The pressure's getting the best of me
Swear I wanna quit but I gotta give what is left in me
Constant criticism, I'm never letting it get to me
I am tunnel vision until I get what is meant for me

In the studio late nights, I'm building a legacy
Making timeless music so everybody remembers me
When I'm by myself I reflect on all of my memories
Then I rap about it 'cause music's my only remedy

My ex was a mess and I should of left and been done with it
I knew that she was damaged as fuck but I still stuck with it
Covert narcissist, I dealt with the trauma that comes with it
Thought that I could save her 'til I lost myself because of it

She has hella demons and she continues to run from it
She'll repeat the toxic cycle again 'til she's numb to it
I can expose her but it's not even worth discussion it
Her being her's already the greatest punishment

Fuck seeking revenge, I'm too busy tryna chart
I'm tryna place on Billboard and walk around with the stars
Wanna reach accolades that clearly set us apart
To the point where she hears my song when she's out drunk at a bar
And reality hits her hard, then her man ask her, "What's wrong?"
And now she's silent, then she starts smiling, tryna play it off
'Cause in that split second she starts to realize who she truly lost
All our memories gone, you're why we are where we are

Feel like this is it, it is what it is
The bigger I get, the more cautious of who I'm with
So I always stick by my lonely just hoping that I don't slip
They wanna see you win, just not doing better then them

And people like that lose, yo, I love it
I'm slowly admiring the person who I'm becoming
The climb doesn't end so I'm not focusing on the summit
I'm focused on the journey, there's not to many who done it

And fuck this industry, you rappers are talking L's
Tryna hold me to standards that you don't hold for yourselves
Authenticity sells, your numbers aren't doing well
Your stories are fairytale, the fans can easily tell

Bosses couldn't see where my head was at back in the days
When I was employed and slavin' for minimum wage
Pushin' carts at Walmart and I would write on my breaks
Always scarified time 'cause I always knew what it takes

Now my house is the bachelor's house with all the girls who visit
I fuck 'em but never love 'em because I am back on my business
Knowing I'm dying for love but I'm so afraid of commitment
'Cause when it comes to love I get hurt whenever I give it

I'm used to people bouncin', dipping out and then leaving me
Just to come back and see I replace them immediately
I was tryna find who I need when really I needed me
I need to be alone, I'm realizing that's how it needs to be, I'm gone

Yeah, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
Please don't chase me
(Please don't chase me)
(I'm gone, I'm gone)