Letter 2 Myself (Avery's Ode)

March 14th 2016
Letter to myself
Dear Avery
I feel like you ain't trying
I mean shit it ain't science
To find some damn love for yourself
You need to get it together
Cuz all this rainy weather that's in your head
Has really gotta suck for your health
What's the matter Avery
Can't take what you served yourself on a platter Avery
Your life ain't sweet it's sour Avery
You feel lost so you gon' down everybody else
Around you to make yourself feel empowered Avery
For what
Is it cuz of what Ol' Girl did
You still on that
You just gon' sit around and not try to overcome that
Feeling sorry for yourself and not doing a thing to bring change
Is only gon' make your old feelings come back
And I'm not aware if you noticed
But lately you've been losing your focus
All you do is lay in that fucking bed like you hopeless
I can read you like a book that's sitting there wide open
Where are your motives at
Your heart is going black
And this is what you need to hear so na I ain't holding back
Why are you holding back
Are you in too deep
I know you better than anybody you can't fool me
The 1st step to fixing a problem is admitting you have one
But you can't even look at your own reflection
To give a lone confession
You fiending for hoe's affection and for that
Towards you I don't feel bad none

Cuz lately I just ain't been feeling like myself
I don't know where I'm going I need a diagnosis
Can't you see I'm crying out for help
Avery or Versa I don't know who's worse but
I know that I'm feeling overwhelmed
Tell my friends I'm sorry but I can't attend the party
Because I just ain't been feeling like myself
I look inside the mirror and I see somebody else

I feel like you don't care
Anymore and I'm so scared cuz I don't know what you gon' do
You need to get it together cuz all this rainy weather that's in your head
Has really got you tripping it's true
What's wrong Versa
What you gon' write another song Versa
To kill the bond between you and your loved ones Versa
You always open your big mouth
Grab a pen and then flip out
You really need to chill out and be calm Versa
That Versaholik you can feel his pain
He's an embodiment of the dark side of your brain
But as I analyze and observe the terrain I see Avery and Versa
Are the same and I'm ashamed
You can't control yourself when you get mad
Somebody pisses you off and you always gotta get back
But instead of tryna get back how about you give back
And maybe karma will come around and bless you cuz
You did that
So here's a clearer picture of your flaws use the lessons
To evolve I'm trying hard to make you succeed
That's why I say
Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the realest of them all
You lying if you say it ain't me
Love Avery

Cuz lately I just ain't been feeling like myself
I don't know where I'm going I need a diagnosis
Can't you see I'm crying out for help
Avery or Versa I don't know who's worse but
I know that I'm feeling overwhelmed
Tell my friends I'm sorry but I can't attend the party
Because I just ain't been feeling like myself
I look inside the mirror and I see somebody else