Foothill March

Jack of all trades
I'm a one man army
Want to see me fail
Guess that I am sorry
I've been on the dark side
Got a hell of a story
Went and found a new life
What I had was boring
Went in on a whim
What a passionate feeling
Writing my heart out
Found a passionate healing
Got it all out
Then I got my head strait
Failed so many times
I guess that it's fate
That I should be here with this brand new perspective
A washed up basket case acting like a massive
Didn't even phase me
Brand new and lately
Gotta believe in my gut just maybe
Feeling all anxty
And working pretty hasty
Get this new stuff out there
Isn't it tasty
Eat it all up
I cooked it just for you
I even made the beats
Now I'm a looney tune

I should probably take a step back and let y'all in
I don't want to fire off and scare y'all man
But I want to be transparent at least the best that I can
To use what I've been given with these gifts to be had
I've realized my perspective is different than most
I sit back and wonder why people arrogantly boast
They claim their feats as victims to roast
I just let it all coast drifting through life going unnoticed
People will see it so I feel no need to stand tall
Look at my image now how could I fall
But deep down inside we all miss to see
It doesn't bring you happiness at least not for me
I might just be weird everyone's called me that before
But life took a twist on me and I'm hungry for more
I want to grow and find those answers inside
Something I didn't do for years because I was afraid and I would hide

I don't think I could make it anymore evident with what I'm doing
You might think I'm mental but I'm risking it all debuting
From this day on I can not go back
On these words I'm saying like weapons to attack
My character to me as a human being
To receive judgment from the world and plainly be seen
You are enticed to your own opinion and what you believe
Just know that I have feelings and you don't know what I've dreamed
I'm surprised with what I can take
Yet I crumble at one comment
Feel like my fears have flipped
My thoughts here are uncommon
So you can decipher the real problem at hand
Then link me to your friends
Oh look it I found him
I stacked my own deck
My next hand will be a flush
Get your own courage
You gotta muster it up
To live in the present and build for your own future
You can better yourself now and I'm being frugal

What do you give to the world
What energy do you give off
People laugh when I talk about vibes and they scoff
They give nothing to the world
Only hurt and anger
I want to give something more
But all I can do is warn of the danger
That negative people bring
A toxic behavior
They affect your mood
Your mentality is major
You can only push it off
And keep it at bay for so long
Until all the happiness and the good in you is gone
I faced my failures and accepted my own defeat
Seven years and counting
The honorary retreat
I took a step back and realized life wasn't the same
So I went and got my own book
For writing in this game
My story goes on and soon you will see
That I don't want to live my life in a mystery
I'll call it all out the misery to be keen
What I have in store for my plan and my dream