Bixel

I wanna call you
But I'll text you
Screw that
I just miss you
I know its gonna get returned
And that I'm probably deserving of this
I've played around
And been labeled as such
I want more than attention
And to feel your touch
But that's all you want
And from more than one guy
I have fantasies of running into you
Just to say hi

How are you doing
See life's been moving
I've changed a lot
And I'm better now
But you don't really care
See I actually did
And unfortunately still do
Like you said a big mood
I walked away with no emotion
Just to turn the corner
Into a lonely explosion
By myself
Inside my own head
Speed racing thoughts
Of what I anxiously said
We both knew
It would never work out
I just ended up
With the short end of a stick
Its funny how it all changes
See I finally want to settle in
But you just keep jumping around
And odds are the next one will too
I feel like monogamy is dead
And I'm just here
Stuck in a slew
See I've lost count
And I don't want to remember
I want something to last longer
Than September to December
These short lived flings
Really got me tangled
I pour into you
And then my heart gets mangled
You're like thanks for the fill
But I'm moving on
See I'm bored with you
And your personality is wrong
For my type
See I showed you the real me
I've been through this too many times
Now get up and leave
I wanna slow down
Because life's moving fast
I know its contradicting
To what I've done in the past
I haven't figured it out
At least I'm on to something
These thought in my head
Are definitely worth jotting

See I I I
I want to take a little bit more time on this
I want to indulge in this experience
Find anything real that I can hold on with
Within the good and the bad I have to have missed
Something of importance that I have rinsed
Myself clean of out of ignorance
In the last month we never kissed
There's gotta be something more
I can't get robbed of my time
But that's lately how it all goes
A little deva mastermind
Kinda spooky
Down on low key
Cuz she ghost me
Hokey pokey
So maybe this is karma and I got my just deserts
But I actually went in on this
Ugh this hurts
I sound so shallow but I finally felt something
Been vacant for years
Now with heart warming tears
I hate to admit it
But I'm at a loss
A long time player see finally got played
Rinse and repeat born and raised
Receiving end of a cute fake out
Curious to see what I'm all about
A creative junkie with some weird quirks
Or an ingenious nerd with some cool perks
Highly unconventional with some old school words
Sheltered and naive but genuine in meaning
What you see is what you get
I don't really hide
Maybe I should
Or at least mask up
Keep them guessing on what I'm worth
But I hate that game
I'll take you as you are
You seem so distant
But you're not that far

(You seem so distant
But you're not that far
You seem so distant
But you're not that far
You seem so distant
But you're not that far
You seem so distant
But you're not that far)

So I'll go searching
And adventure on my own
I don't want to settle
For a makeshift home
I want a partner who's someone I can trust
Who I can build with
Both rising on the come up
Who's supportive and encouraging
Yet still keeps me in check
Why do we fight over the dumbest of texts
I want her to see through that
And know what comes next
No virtual living
But reality checks
To show no skin
With a smoking hot bod
And make them question
If its just a facade
A pigment of their imagination
Give them a tease
With all the frustration
I feel like we've been lied too
And I want to rage
Flash images on a screen
Has fried my brain
Its not what its about
Yet we believe it is
We've been told its ok
And now we feed it to these kids
Thanks for the fill
But I'm moving on
I'm bored with you
And your personality is wrong
For my type
I showed you the real me
I've been through this too many times
Now get up and leave
I wanna slow down
Because life's moving fast
I know its contradicting
To what I've done in the past
I think I figured it out
At least I'm on to something
These thought in my head
Are definitely worth jotting

I I I
I want to take a little bit more time on this
I want to indulge in this experience
I want to find anything real that I can hold on with
Within the good and the bad I have to have missed
Something of importance that I have rinsed
Myself clean of out of ignorance
In the last month we never kissed
There's gotta be something more
She can't rob me of my time
But that's lately how it all goes
A little deva mastermind
Kinda spooky
Down on low key
Cuz she ghost me
Hokey pokey
So maybe this is karma and I got my just deserts
But I actually went in on this
Ahh this hurts
I sound so shallow but I finally felt something
Been vacant for years
Now with heart warming tears
I hate to admit it
But I'm at a loss
A long time player finally got played
Rinse and repeat born and raised
Receiving end of a cute fake out
Curious to see what I'm all about
A creative junkie with some weird quirks
Or an ingenious nerd with some cool perks
Highly unconventional with some old school words
Sheltered and naive but genuine in meaning
What you see is what you get
And I don't really hide
Maybe I should
Or at least mask up
Keep them guessing on what I'm worth
But I hate that game
I'll take you as you are
You seem so distant
And you're not that far

Back track
Back track
Back track
Back track
Guess I went a little bit too far
But I can totally see why we are
More messed up than ever before
We are witnessing so much projection
And being told so many lies
So many life styles to be lived
And multiple accounts for our eyes
We can hide behind our screens
And contact whoever we want
Just swipe left of swipe right
Or DM strait to their inbox
To give up and jump ship like it never happened
The only people we keep around
Are the ones that we actually need
At least for the time being