Painfully Funny

You're constantly digging a hole
And you've dragged me down
I've lost all sight of my goals
You keep holding me down, down, down
I've held my breath for way too long
You're not the only one
Don't know where I belong
But with you I'm done, done, done
So fuck off

Skeletons haunt me
No one taught me being self-aware is
A nightmare full of emotions so daunting
No wonder alpha males whither
Stick with flaunting
To admit to one's self
The extent of the raunch
Like I'm a despicable individual
Manipulative and very willing to belittle, the fault
Sometimes it's rotten sleep at night
Dear God, I'm paying for my crimes
Spiritual tithes, praying my redemption is nigh
Finding positive sights, bring better economic might
How much of my ethics
Is the product of marketing insight
Am I really real or is blunt and raw a gimmick
My fucking mind, God may forgive my sins
But my peers would shoot me down on sight
The villain, that is I, the fear and envy in their eyes
My complex to appear divine, got reality twisted as I visualize
Maybe I'm just that disconnected, the loop of recollection
Preventing me from seeing from their perception
I hear I'm doing better then what has previously been said
But I'm an addict caught up in compulsion, overt deception
Whatever you tell me is met with an immediate rejection
Wait, let me interject, that don't mean I won't reflect
In two or three days the wisdom kicks in, fills my head
By then I see the ashes where a bridge once was steady
I'm ready, to begin again, but trust is hard to earn
What are friends? At least I no longer pass reflection
Focus on my end, my life is in constant recovery
The dark washes over me
I can do it if my attitude isn't scummy

You're constantly digging a hole
And you've dragged me down
I've lost all sight of my goals
You keep holding me down, down, down
I've held my breath for way too long
You're not the only one
Don't know where I belong
But with you I'm done, done, done
So fuck off

Is it come on now don't be testy
It's wrong how foes keep testing me
I'm motherfuckng funny, geez
And it's woefully stressing if you disagree
Or is it come on now educate me
It's wrong for me to purposefully disagree
Without hearing a thing, my opinions may be me
But I believe in evolution of a being certainly
The choice is yours, voice concerns
Boisterous blurbs belittle and burn
Or if the meaning turns, a bridge to birth
Benevolence between bereaved bedridden bids
Learning ain't so simple, but I never said it was
It's obvious to me, you obviously stuck
I used to be that schmuck
So I can straight up call you cuz
And ain't nothing G about living for number one
No squad, no team, just notches on a belt of fun
For the sake of why the fuck not, lol I'm dumb
God, I was pathetic, enough to smell it, now I'm done
Phoenix from the ashes, but those loaded guns
Will the mischief of my youth
Be perceived as aggregious
In truth, I believe I wasn't the meanest
But I did deceive with lust
And trust placed in me, was breached
Morally outrageous but them trigger fingers
Loaded and ready to bust
Because if this redemption is just
Then some reflections look selfish
And well change should not be a must, well fuck
Does your vision see how this planet's spinning
We enemies if you think winning is belittling
Instead of spitting for a tomorrow we can live in
Remember women and children

Something's brewing
Rough neck fuming
Enough with the motherfucking
Constant spewing
Moving excuses
Convoluted
Enough cuz this motherfucker's
Youthful, stupid

You're constantly digging a hole
And you've dragged me down
I've lost all sight of my goals
You keep holding me down, down, down
I've held my breath for way too long
You're not the only one
Don't know where I belong
But with you I'm done, done, done
So fuck off

Being Morty in a world full of Ricks
Eye patch steady, unload a full clip
Unpopular as it may be, you sir are a dick
I'm tired of your shit
Hatred's fucking flying but come quick
The mobs finna lynch
On some superiority mix
Heightened tensions as egos flip
No button combo can insist
Because intelligence doesn't fit
When logic's cash ruled
And everything around me's selfish
Is the planet even dying? Guess it's
Okay to let another generation deal with death
Yadda yadda and some dramatic effect
Freedom to live with destructive intent
So the intelligent, use diction to embellish and
Quelch access to definitions cuz that one per cent
Hoarde knowledge, they gained it, you didn't
What the fuck did you expect
Didn't you say chivalry's dead