Ignorance

I really did feel imprisoned
My mind was drifting; indifference
Hit or miss thinking; insisting
On things to be with this intrinsic
Need for the wicked, dismissing
People, in an instance; need distance
Between them and me; efficient
On top of it all I am different
Woke up and I knew that I wasn't the dude
What I thought to be true is now awkward, a ruse
Is it possibly true that I was just confused, in a bubble
I bottled up awful and cruel, and now all of my thoughts are like new
At the bottom, excuse if I bothered the fuck out of you, with my problems
I thought I was screwed, left a lot of you blue with my talk and my do

Shh

You know that I would never do that on purpose
I used to be cool but the cruelty surfaced
Come through with the buddha, and do that for certain
A pitcher I might just be locked in, I'm vulgar
Take hits like a fighter and shots like a soldier
This cannot be good for me, but I feel better
I'm getting some head, I prefer that to letters
Pathetic how I used to live I regret it
I settle with better intentions, I said it
I meant it, I let up and get up, I'm fed up with tension inside of my chest
Talk about being the best
When I couldn't even digest
Issues that's why I am blessed
To have been inside of this nurturing nest

Wait

I lost my innocence, traded with ignorance
Then I had my revelation, painstakingly painting a new kind of painting
That blew out the frame I was picturing
I knew I was lazy and sickening
I had to get rid of the ways I was living and change my behaviour quicker than
Bipolar disorder
So I say goodbye to the lies and the merchandise horder
'Cause I can't afford to buy shit anymore
Yeah my wallet is sore, I fucked up but its normal
I'm not an anomaly, I am just weird but who isn't I'm not even joking
We're all a bit different
So why would I lie when I say that I made it?
I used to be hated I still am but lately?

Huh

I really couldn't care less
Why would I give a shit if you're looking at me when I am rapping?
No I wish that you would stare next
That's right I stopped with all the negative thinking and drinking,
'Cause you know, I really wanna respect
Myself and everybody around me that wanna kick it with me cuz I ain't got no hate left

I stopped with the ignorant shit, I don't think I'm omnipotent bitch
I cannot lie when I see what I did,
Gotta admit, both sides exist
I don't need you to tell me about life and how it is more nuanced than this
I'm painting my own with a pen till it drips
Reflection of sins Mr Gray in this bitch
That's why I was hiding but now I'm like neon, I'm vibrant, I'm shinin'
Alive and I'm kicking, was silent, asylum-like vibes in my mind, I am finally free
To be me, I'm defined by the lies and the truth
By the highs and the lows by the light and the Dark that reside in my soul
Cannot lie but I'm prone to defy what I told
I reside in my dome