Alone

If you ever crossed his way
You could tell he was a introvert
When negative engery came his way
It was something he'd always tried to divert
His soul was hurting, feeling like a burden
He didn't want people to be concerned
It's like it went unnoticed
Numb looking the truth
20 something years searching for a purpose
He was always glad to see you
When stumbled upon the bad he turned into someone else
But He would still give you all he had
In Hopes one day you would help
Caused havoc on accident
Yet caring and passionate
He found a way to stop what hurt
But it just made things worse
We didn't know exactly what was going on
I didn't know you were dealing with depression this long
Never thought you would take the quick way out
You know you could of came to my house to talk it out
Sometimes I wish it was me instead of you in this position
Hard to understand I don't know why I hate this decision
There were days where it was hard to sleep the incisions deep
I could barely go about my day in a sane mind state
People fight battles mentally everyday there's something new
Maybe if you would have told me, I would have helped you

It's hard to get closure
I thought we were closer
I don't know what's worse
You leaving or what it all means
Wish you didn't leave like you did
You were the one who introduced me to this

I wish I could call you back, I can't let this go
I told you to come by, I can't let this go
Now I'm feeling all alone alone alone
It's hard to get by all alone
I've been feeling all alone
It's hard to go on alone

I hope you can hear me
This has been weighing on me
I wish i can see you one more time
Memories kicking it start to flood my mind
There was never a dull moment
You loved life and enjoyed it
We always wanted to have a studio
We would just freestyle and rap to instrumentals
We were something different each had our own flow
This is hard to believe I hate to see you go
I didn't know it would be this way
I hope I'll see you another day
I wanna say to everyone I've ever came across
Especially family in other time zones
Don't hesitate if your going through trouble pick up the phone
I know what it feels to feel like your all alone

(Phone rings)
What's up lil primo it's omero
I was just calling to see what your doing
I'm worried about you it's been while since I've heard from you or seen you
Just holler back on it later

In hard times it may be difficult to comprehend
People go so quickly and leave us with feelings we don't understand
Constantly talking doesn't mean your communicating
Especially if the one listening doesn't understand what your saying
Suicide doesn't end the pain your feeling
It passes on to someone else
And messes with their health
Care more about the ones around than wealth
No one knows when our time is over
Nothing lasts forever
This is hard to process because I thought you were making progress
I hope you hear what I have to say, I know your watching over us