Death Song

If you see it you must be it or else who knows it might destroy you
Try for what you want all you really have to do is keep trying
& all that overthinking and all the shit you had to do to feel better
Even when your discipline failed you maybe your own life was a friend in disguise

Life chooses for itself but oh to love choosing with it
& every vain desire waiting to ride on the breeze
Always seeking other ways for my little soul's increase
In the shadow of the steep one I fear i believe
No no no

I know it's not even rock n roll but I like it even so & the distance I was made from
Starin at the wall gotta pay the piper's call gotta lust after result till ya don't down in the same heart
I know it's not the beacon it was but then what is that lives outside of the min(e)d
Who knows I'll think we're so far away singing such pained words to describe the spirit's only design

I'm like a farmer but I'm growing ugly & boring
Time is the world's black transfusion yeah & this must be hell
To see the valley ahead & yet not to see in it
The guiding hand of everything leading beyond the self
No no no
I know a chariot is swinging low & the beat it makes just grows till it's supposed to drown us out now
Out to understand that it's of no consequence if he has to wipe his hands when he touches me at all now
I know someday I'll hafta get down & thank the road I am as weak as I am
Till then i'll hold this myth like a shield runnin jumpin & high steppin one step ahead of the man

Somewhere along the line i became an anthropologist looking at the ways
Of all the outside lookin in on the life that we love
Somewhere along the line i became a documentarian filming the page
& lock and chain and every key that put me out of a job

There ain't nothin closer how
& there ain't nothin further how
Just different pictures on a line
Goin over the mountains how
Down under the rivers how
Stretched out over the whole life
Do I kill my energy
Or did its absence wait for me
At 12th & vine trying to
Love me & be true