bad emissions

Clocks ticking
Missing, when you had me, star stricken
Feeling everything that I could in an instant
Thinking that I understood when I didn't
I admit it, I was, burning fuel, bad emissions
I can't ever stand by my own damn decisions
I just wanna be alone for a minute
I just need to find a home that's not a clinic

I can't ever be the same since I've been beside you
I can't ever seem to change like the quotes in your bio
But what the fuck do I know
He's your mother fucking idol

I'm just tryna be the man that's a part of your mission
I wanna understand but its hard when there's friction
And you won't even listen
You say I hold back your ambitions

But you know that in truth that's a lie right
I may get mad but in my life you're the highlight
I wouldn't trade it even it were in my right
And maybe I can't make us heal but maybe time might

I'll wait until the day you decide that you've made up your mind
Cause in the end we both know that's like all of the time
And then you doubt it
You say your judgement is so clouded

I can't ever seem to move when you're so undecided
You take up all the room when you're so one sided
And I don't ever like it
It hurts and its violent

Every day, every night, every second of time
I'm losing sleep alongside losing my mind
I try hard looking
I try hard but there's nothing to find

Clocks ticking
Missing, when you had me, star stricken
Feeling everything that I could in an instant
Thinking that I understood when I didn't
I admit it, I was, burning fuel, bad emissions
I can't ever stand by my own damn decisions
I just wanna be alone for a minute
I just need to find a home where you're in it