hard liquor

Never a chance to say bye
Needing a chance to get high
Thinking about you is cruel
Drowning down bottles a fool

Here I go back on my bullshit again
Fucked up inside but I try to pretend
Things are all better if we are just friends
All good relationships come to an end
Left me in pieces I'm trying to mend
Thought that true lovers would always ascend

All problems and boundaries
You say that you're better without me
I find it so very unlikely
Just tell me straight up you don't like me
Fight me, tell me I'm always a pain
Tell me I'm toxic and hurting your brain
Complain, tell me I'm not a good person
Explain to me that were destined to worsen
Cursed and not having means to an end
Not even worth it just being your friend

And I know, without me your problems will fade
It'd hurt you too much if I were to of stayed
Afraid, I'm scared of this life here without you
How the hell can I make it without you?
The feelings are stronger about you
Everyday I'm stuck thinking about you
Thinking 'bout all of the times that we shared
Moments when you showed that you really cared
Finding a person like you was so rare
Dragging it out for so long wasn't fair
You see, the longer I loved you the more I was scared

The thought of just losing you more a despair
On to the point where I can't even bear
The feeling without you now baby I swear
I'm thinking 'bout you more than usual
Thinking 'bout how you're beautiful
And your body moves, and its musical
And your speak to me, and its lyrical
And you're beautiful... and you're...
And you're beautiful

Take me back to when we were kids
Holding hands, touching lips
The thought of love so ridiculous
Asking you out just a hit or miss
Reminisce on our inner bliss
Lust hidden in our innocence
It was natural, we were making sense
Comfortable, and we were never tense
To no expense, we were feeling right
Bodies close, and I would hold you tight
You tempted me and I would take a bite
When dark was there, you would show me light
And we were bright, but we were kids
Not knowing what loving is
Holding on to false promises
Well I figured out what the problem is

I keep you far from what is right
Pull you away from seeing light
Looks like without me you're alright
But I'm fucked up and up all night
Wake up to panic attacks
I just want you on my back
I just want... I just want... I just want you back

Apologies, what's that alright for
Losing sleep, I'm downing NyQuil
Its killing me, like a blow from a rifle
It shouldn't be so hard on me but
You were the one that I found
One that I crowned my queen
Held you above my own self esteem
Baby I thought that we were a team
And we had a thing, and we had a dream
Together now merrily down the stream
Forever seemed distant from a dream
And nothing we thought of was too extreme

See when you're in love, nothing is far from reality
Never give up was the model mentality
But feelings change, feelings fade
Can't help but feel betrayed