The Commencement

I've been fighting all these Demons
Using Drugs to Mask the Pain
I pray to the Lord
Every night to keep sane
I done took so many losses
And it's weighing on my brain
But somehow I'm still smiling
Cause I have Faith it'll be ok
Mama told me chase your dreams
Don't give a fuck about way they say
Hold onto your faith
Cause God will always make a way
Ima stay down till my come up
I ain't changing for the fame
Lord protect my heart
And don't let me fade away

When my pops he got shot
It put everything in perspective
To follow my heart
Cause it can all end in a second
I been through some shit
But remain grateful for all the lessons
I took my aggression
And turned to a lethal weapon
We was down so bad
My heart was filled up with resentment
I was mad for so long
Stemming from the lack of attention
When my pops walked out
It left me very feeling bitter
Turned my back on my family
Mama sorry for the tension
Maybe that's why I struggle
Be having problems with commitment
How can life move on
When I carry around this remnant
Tell lil baby I'm sorry
I swear I had real good intentions
But we still got our whole life
This is only the beginning

I've been fighting all these Demons
Using Drugs to Mask the Pain
I pray to the Lord
Every night to keep sane
I done took so many losses
And it's weighing on my brain
But somehow I'm still smiling
Cause I have Faith it'll be ok
Mama told me chase your dreams
Don't give a fuck about way they say
Hold onto your faith
Cause God will always make a way
Ima stay down till my come up
I ain't changing for the fame
Lord protect my heart
And don't let me fade away

I cannot fade
This is just the beginning
Whole life on section 8
Ima get me these millions
Been wrote off my whole life
I turned out to be brilliant
I grew up we was struggling
But it made me resilient
If you knew what I've been through
You d change your opinion
Said I wouldn't be nothing
But I knew I was gifted
Family turned they back
Made me feel so conflicted
Now they calling me
Asking me why I was distant
Lately been peeping the game
Be the ones closest to you
Who will defame
Your name
I was Told I wouldn't be nothing
Look how far I done came
Some times it replays in my brain
The ones closest bring you the most pain
Had to start looking the big picture
Not the ones in the frame

I've been fighting all these Demons
Using Drugs to Mask the Pain
I pray to the Lord
Every night to keep sane
I done took so many losses
And it's weighing on my brain
But somehow I'm still smiling
Cause I have Faith it'll be ok
Mama told me chase your dreams
Don't give a fuck about way they say
Hold onto your faith
Cause God will always make a way
Ima stay down till my come up
I ain't changing for the fame
Lord protect my heart
And don't let me fade away