Welcome Wanderers

I wanna thank you for tuning in
Now I just wonder where to begin
I don't know if I should start with the pain
That I caused or the pain that keeps swooping in
Or maybe the chains that I'm truly in
I guess either way it's cause of stupid sin
There's a lot to the story trynna loop you in
I know we just met I'm hoping to be friends
You see I grew up with some pain that cut me and left scars
Then I did a lot things that put me deep in the dark
Then I let God reign and He was healing my heart
Then I turned back away and I've been falling apart
From day one the music was my therapist
I couldn't run from gruesome and tight areas
This dungeon I built these high barriers
Now I'm done with losing to my arrogance
I'm on a mission
I'm living
In a state of giving my all to this business
I made lot mistakes y'all ain't witness
But it's time to rat on me Tekashi type snitching
Often I'm missing
Off in my prison
And when I say my prison the bars are my sentence
Darkness might win this
Hard to fight when it's
A lot of demons up there halting my vision
But I'm looking ahead and I see hope
And I'm hoping I look and see me grow
Trynna grow to be dead to me keep closed
The lid of the casket and behold
When I'm figuring out the lab and what this is about
I gotta go picture the sound and get my blade
Cause the prison I'm bound in is a depiction of how I keep getting tricked
To give power to pride
I'm getting up out the broken pit that I found and gotta quit with the doubting in my brain
I been living in towers locked up and getting devoured each hour
Sick of my finicky mind frame
Theres a little me cowering cause the sin in me showering
And I'm feeling I'm drowning in my shame
But I'm giving up now and I'ma be giving the power to God
Who killing my doubt and the lies
Who could know the man I'd become
Stupid flow that show I've seen some
Ruthless overlords who would torture more
Truth be told its war time bring guns
Move to open doors fight these scum
Renew the order for my freedom
Prove I'm scorning more of my demons
Ooh I'm sure they're gonna light me up
But do I care though
No
I'ma keep bringing in my heat
For the deniro
No
Money is not what the prize be
I bring the fuego
So
I'm burning up within but rising
Up in the air though
Ergo I am still trying to find me
Been a long long journey but I'm here now
I'm not looking back up in the rearview
If you want some everybody clear out
I ain't holding back I'm gonna clear you
Jumping over heads when I veer through
Lucky I ain't dead I been near to
I'm seeing only red I'm focusing up ahead
And I'm coming for the ones who adhere to
The dirty lie that's hurting my deserted and burdened mind
Im worthless I am searching for curtains
I can hide behind and purchase a word to try to learn from my mistakes
Sure I'm fine but working to worship right
And purge the lie that certain crimes are perfectly worth the price
Absurd advice
I'm certainly hurting burdened and burning I'm
Coming back to the truth and I spit it in the booth
I hope my story prove that Jesus see me through
And see through to the brutalized you
Cause he can move through the screwed up and do
Whatever He could think of to bring us all into truth
Cause He seen all sinking and as Father a He knew
He had to do something or everybody would lose
So He made himself a body so He could live it and do
The one thing He knew would satisfy all
The rules and the codes and the lines of the law
Then He lived them all perfectly so we could not fall
He knew we couldn't do it so Christ took the Cross
So I stand here today
Not for the fame
But to let you all hear the story why I give thanks
It's still not over cause I struggle every day
Trynna cast demons out but the muggle in me cant
But that's me though
I'm just switching up the system like keto
See there ain't a lot of rappers who gon' spit it like I spit it deep with lyrics and then Bringing a crazy flow
I ain't trynna tell you what to do or what to believe
I'm just starting to open up and I'm just speaking for me
I'm hoping you relate I hope you wanna be free
Cause as of late that what I feel my chains are a beast
I got this anger in me and I don't know where it came from
Unstable and weak is how I feel cause I can't run
The table is clean I'm preparing a feast
But this terror in me is what I'm afraid of of
I'm aware that in me somewhere that is deep is a dark scary beast with the face of
All the shame that I keep and the pain that I seek
But I'm thinking that it's time that I say something
I'm pouring out my soul and I'm putting it out there
Gotta learn to dream and to shut out my nightmares
I'm on another team now I'm standing up right here
If I'm winning I dont know but it's time to go fight Fear
All the chains coming out the walls
All the shame coming out the dark
Borrowed anger getting awful dangerous
Too far I've taken it's time for war
I'm to blame for this evil
Now I'm awake I'm in the zone
All the pain and then the fallen angels
That call my name are getting dethroned