Lonely

I used to live so fearlessly
Never a thought of jealousy
Used to believe I'd be a legacy
But something fell through internally
Why do I think I need to take ecstasy
To stop all my pain and my misery
Why do I think it's okay to bleed
Why do I feel so lonely

Everyday people would come up to me
Asking the same damn thing
"Hey, how ya doing"
I'd say I'm alright
Really, I'm just fine
But actually, I'm lying
I'm dying on the inside

It's the feeling of being denied
Locked in from the outside
Trying to override the toxified
Version of myself
Oversimplified to even become unrectified
And unsatisfied and even terrified
To continue to hide
From the inevitable landslide
That will coincide
With the most unjustified version of death
That we all call

I used to live so fearlessly
Never a thought of jealousy
Used to believe I'd be a legacy
But something fell through internally
Why do I think I need to take ecstasy
To stop all my pain and my misery
Why do I think it's okay to bleed
Why do I feel so lonely

Why do I feel so lonely
Why do I feel like a zombie
From the death inside of me taking over my body
No, just let me go
I overflow with indigo
I row row row my little boat
Into a cave inside my soul
That nobody talks about
Cares about
Hears about
"Knows about"
I got doubt
Scream and shout
Lifelong timeout
Consecutive strike out
No payout
Just freak out
And fallout
Feel worn-out
Final wipeout, turn the lights out
Yes I mean without a proper checkout

I used to live so fearlessly
Never a thought of jealousy
Used to believe I'd be a legacy
But something fell through internally
Why do I think I need to take ecstasy
To stop all my pain and my misery
Why do I think it's okay to bleed
Why do I feel so lonely
Lonely, Ecstasy, Misery

It's not okay to bleed
I don't need misery
And I don't need ecstasy
But why am I so lonely

Why am I so lonely
I don't need ecstasy
I don't want misery
It's not okay to bleed
But why am I so lonely

I used to live so fearlessly
Never a thought of jealousy
Used to believe I'd be a legacy
But something fell through internally
Why do I think I need to take ecstasy
To stop all my pain and my misery
Why do I think it's okay to bleed
Why do I feel so lonely



Credits
Writer(s): Alexander Bator
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