Lonley

I've been so lonely
You don't even know me
I Need someone to show me
Need to Learn how to grow please
Stuck on the old me
Missing the OG
I'm not the same
I matured, you still don't see

I let her go
I just removed her phone
My feels can't take these stones
They aim to break my bones
I need to be alone
Remove her as a whole
I need to heal my soul
Without the heart she stole

Yeah she stole it from me
I've been tryna retrieve it
But she won't let it go
She gave it out to the demons
So now I'm at a road
With stains where someone was bleeding
The stains are from my own
If momma saw she'd be screaming

Cause I've been barely copin'
This Fever got me frozen
I'm Taking ibuprofen
My brothers on parole
Another's out of home
To smoke but on the low
That's all he ever do
His life is at a toll

Another's tryna deal
With all his past mistakes
Whenever he's distressed
He takes one to the face
The other has emotions
That he can't control
It keeps him locked at home
Unstable from the dome

I've been so lonely
You don't even know me
I Need someone to show me
Need to Learn how to grow please
I'm Stuck on the old me
Missing the OG
I'm not the same
I matured, you still don't see

I let her go
I just removed her phone
My feels can't take these stones
They aim to break my bones
I need to be alone
Remove her as a whole
I need to heal my soul
Without the heart she stole

Without the company I'm lonely
Talking to the angels by my side, they keep me holy
Feining for the demons on my back, I'm fina OD
Evil thoughts are going back and fourth, but they're below me
Wonder if they loved me, if they ever would've told me
Now I'm insecure cause I don't know they never show me
Wonder if my idols had to deal with this before me
Good and evil mixing in my heart, I never know peace

Now I'm running from the real
See another brother lose and pop another pill
Running up the music tryna run up on a bill
Put passion in my lyrics just to show them how I feel
I do it for the message I don't do it for the meal
The money is a perk but when I write it helps me deal
Told my mom and dad I'm fina make it, on the real
The second that I make it ima gun it to the mills

I get heart attacks
Got my heart detached
Gave my love away
I got nothing back
Friends they come and go
Musics by my side
Learning to be bold
So now I decide

I've been so lonely
You don't even know me
I Need someone to show me
Need to Learn how to grow please
I'm Stuck on the old me
Missing the OG
I'm not the same
I matured, you still don't see

I let her go
I just removed her phone
My feels can't take these stones
They aim to break my bones
I need to be alone
Remove her as a whole
I need to heal my soul
Without the heart she stole