Underworld

Here we start the dance moving through the darkest mind
There is darkness deep within that I have yet to find
If you frighten easily, this is where you're warned
You will find a battered heart that's dangling and torn
The harm was from myself but it scars the very same
In this state of work you will find no trace of blame
Casualties of faults, I'm guilty for my crimes
What's even more despicable is my internal grime
When you want to kill another, that results in murder
But wait just hear me out and let me take it one step further
Judges have exceptions when you want to take a life
If you're the one who's bleeding and your hand is on the knife
They'll lock you in a room and have you leave with a prescription
Then tell you therapy will help you deal with your infliction
This is what society tries desperately to hide
That murder is still murder even if it's suicide

Every single time that I lay my head to rest
I ask for my mind to not put me to the test
I pray to gods i don't believe in asking them for sleep
For a quiet mind, I'd sell everything for cheap
Underworld a metaphor for what's between my ears
Putting it on paper is confronting every fear
There's so many dimensions to what lies behind my frown
There is no looking up from here, I'm keeping my head down

We're going down in the depths, depths of my soul
Where the destination is driving away from goals
Every step you take is a step on heated coals
Don't drive on the pavement if you cannot pay the tolls
We're going down in the depths, depths of my mind
Where there's not that many things that can be seen as kind
Secrets trapped in cages start to unlock and unwind
Some are foggy pathways that have yet to be defined

The dance is picking up and the room begins to sway
I'm starting to feel dizzy and my nose fills with decay
Lying dead beneath are all my mistakes and regrets
On my face is colored paints and a thin layer of sweat
I'm petrified of everything, each movement makes me jump
In my mind's a basement full of little creaks and bumps
I used to wear my confidence and held my head up high
But now I watch my paces so I don't see eye to eye
All echoes of the laughs I had are now just quiet thoughts
Avoiding people constantly, they can't handle this plot
There's just one way to silence them, I'm not quite ready yet
Contemplating back and forth, for now no need to fret
Death fascinates and startles me, universe of unknown
It calls out for me everyday, the presence only grows
Everyone is moving on while I'm stuck in the middle
Crafting pain to metaphors to twisted little riddles

Every single time that I lay my head to rest
I ask for my mind to not put me to the test
I pray to gods i don't believe in asking them for sleep
For a quiet mind, I'd sell everything for cheap
Underworld a metaphor for what's between my ears
Putting it on paper is confronting every fear
There's so many dimensions to what lies behind my frown
There is no looking up from here, I'm keeping my head down

We're going down in the depths, depths of my soul
Where the destination is driving away from goals
Every step you take is a step on heated coals
Don't drive on the pavement if you cannot pay the tolls
We're going down in the depths, depths of my mind
Where there's not that many things that can be seen as kind
Secrets trapped in cages start to unlock and unwind
Some are foggy pathways that have yet to be defined
We're going down in the depths, depths of my soul
Where the destination is driving away from goals
Every step you take is a step on heated coals
Don't drive on the pavement if you cannot pay the tolls
We're going down in the depths, depths of my mind
Where there's not that many things that can be seen as kind
Secrets trapped in cages start to unlock and unwind
Some are foggy pathways that have yet to be defined

Shut your mouth and listen, don't ask questions at this time
You won't like what you see, viewer discretion is advised
You can leave with answers but there's always mysteries
I cannot tell you everything, but lots will come from me
No one ever says it all, there's still some tucked away
Secrets have their way of spilling any given day
You're driving into territories, no one hears your yells
You're reading my truth, welcome to my tales from hell