Ghost Unity

Is this the pain I've been searching for?
Is this the road I'm supposed to follow?
I don't know, I don't know
I'm holding on to nothing and I can't let go
It's hard to face your own abyss
A pool of empty words, hidden in the mist
I'm reaching out, so close yet so far
Will I ever learn how to survive?

I am sinked inside
And bathed in my withered memories
I'm wasting my time
But there is nothing that can stop this

So this is goodbye
To all of my friends, "I really cherish what you've done"
Cause when I needed you most
You turned your back on me and left me all alone

How can you heal the wounds that no one's able to see?
Replace the pain with absence and embrace the longing
I'm tired of believing you're the helping hand
Every time I reached out, you left me buried in the sand

I'm just staring at the wastelands
All alone, no sound, just my head spinning round and round and round
In circles, my medicines are made of white and purple
And so I stare - in vain
Do I care, in my brain?
What I see, what I hear?
Blurry you, frantic me
So tell me please, what's going on inside my head?

I can see the light but it's just too far away
So I embrace the night and I let it lead the way

This is goodbye
To all of my friends, "I really cherish what you've done"
Cause when I needed you most
You turned your back on me and left me all alone

You thought I'm ready to live, you thought you showed me the way
I say fuck you all, try to live my day

Breathe in, breathe out, hold tight
Take a deep breath and let it out

There's so much inside me that I can't let go
I should bury the past and bring myself back home
But the pain is so restless, so restless
I never really knew where I'm supposed to go
It's me and my demons when the lights are off
I feel them under my skin, but they don't want to go
But I know I'm not leaving, not leaving
They won the battle, but not the war

Breathe in, breathe out, hold tight
Let it all go and make things right