The Pain (Zecheriah's Song)

A bright mind in a dark place
Seconds away from heartbreak
So sick of seeing mom's heart ache
In the midst of a famine got food for thought on a large plate
Dove in the water, swam where the sharks play
Untouched, and my brain it's like a high-speed car chase
Surrounded by fast girls so my heart's racing
The temptation, retarded bodies, smart faces
But that ain't what I came for
That's sadly who people think I would change for
See I'd rather bring sunshine when it's rain pour
My mindset is game 7 when it's game 4
Just trying to cope with my lifestyle
Know where I want to be but stuck in right now
But how you cope when you coming home to the lights out?
Meanwhile your closest friends are cozied up in a nice house
Enough to make you reconsider if life is worth living
No heat in the house, no food in the kitchen
See I'm just trying to flip misery into history
Never could think realistically
The average life just ain't fit for me
Nah, a 9 to 5 is the farthest from my highest ambition
A college degree is cool but how high is tuition
It's higher than any weed will ever take you
Trust me I tried both, there ain't many I can't relate to
I've been at the bottom, low enough to let your problems break you
Waking up hoping this is the day you finally break through
Then it's at your lowest point that things really start to get worse
When the one I saw last week I now see lying in a hurst
And they are asking me questions
Meanwhile I'm just looking for answers
Like did I really just lose a 9-year-old cousin to cancer?
And what to say to my aunt? That it's going to be okay?
She just lost her youngest son, that type of pain don't go away
People are telling her to pray, but what does a mother say
To the very God she trusted
The same one that's supposed to love her
The same one that gave her a child
To care for then took it from her
And had doctors talking to her like her son was just a number
This is pain, way too accustomed to the feeling
I grew up in homes where water leaked
Through the cracks of the ceilings
And people got shot while killers ran
Through the backs of my buildings
The Futures all to look forward to
Cause my past ain't appealing nah
But I will rise, all that pain I got through it
And the fact that I'm still here just means
I'm strong enough to do it
So, got to get my family out this hole we live in
So impatient cuz there's so much more to life
I know we're missing
But we gonna be aight, and I put that in my life
I'll be the reason y'all believe, y'all be the reason why I fight
And I know that better days might seem so far out of sight
But I hope y'all strapped in tight
It's going to be one hell of a flight I'm here to stay