Adolescence

Woke up early
Morning, did
Some cardio
And stretched

Try to get rid of
These visions
That my mind had
Always sketched

Pretty pictures, oh
These thoughts
Keep coming, get
It off my chest

Just a constant
Over thinker
And I think ya'll
Know the rest

I do this
I do that
Sending love
To all my friends

Would you like
To see a concert
Well I guess
It all depends

Purchase tickets
For myself, I
Never minded
Being lonely

There's just nights
Where I get sad
And I just want
Someone to hold me

Rolled the dice
Showed my hand
I was never
One to gamble

All these tracks
That I have written
They were only
Just a sample

Got my brain
Cleared of these
Toxins, now my
Power levels risen

Start to tap
Into emotions
Because I always
Kept them hidden

Speeds at 90
On I-5

I wear my shades
So I won't cry

I kept my demons
Locked inside

I can't say no
Believe I've tried

I scroll, I post
I see your name

I feel so sad
Are you the same

I hope you're safe
Please don't mind me

I guess that's why
You left me be

Said that in
The last track
I'd be done
Well I'm a fool

How do I confess
My feelings
If this is my
Only tool

Therapy is
Somewhat working
But decisions
Are my own

Sometimes wish
I never grew up
In this era
With a phone

Pull my fears
Right out my bag
And then confront
Them like a man

But don't lose
Your inner
Child, just do
Everything you can

If you have a
Certain feeling
Let it out, you
Can scream

Nothing's ever
Like they taught
Us, life ain't really
What it seems

As adults were
Still children
Make mistakes
Like everyday

It can be a
Certain action
Or as small as
What you say

Guess my innocence
Died early, why
I'm locked
Inside my room

Haven't thought
About the future
But I'd rather
Not assume

Living out my
Day, monotonous
I haven't
Got a clue

Yes I'm passionate
At times, but
What about
The other two

It goes work
Back to music
And I always
Thank my family

But it's hard to
Let them know
Because I don't think
They understand me

Rest my head
Against the floor

These thoughts of
You, I can't ignore

Please tell me
That you'll be okay

It just don't matter
What I say

I run, I shoot
I write, repeat

These days feel
Longer, or it's me

Yes time stands
Still, I'm comatose

You say that's life
Well I suppose

I smash my fist
Against the wall

I tell myself that
You won't call

I guess I never
Knew my role

I reached a point
Of no control

My powers loose
They came unleashed

These feelings I
Have just released

I'm past one hundred
Reached my max

I blame myself for
My own past