Promise

You watched me fall down while I was hurting inside
All the pieces from my heart I just started to cry
The moment you left, I haven't been my best
And honestly, I can't hear the heartbeat in my chest
I imagine your voice every night I go to sleep
Still think about those moments of you and I at the beach
Still waking up in sweats with a mess in the sheets
From crying all night, I just wanna be free
My heart is in your bed remember all those things you said
I'm numb from your lines, but it's all just in my head
I guess I do it to myself, thinking back to the past
Memories continue to haunt me, then I start to feel glad
That I met you because you turned a good guy into a man
Witnessed me fumble and crumble when I was down on my last
Now that you're gone, I just watch time pass
Take another puff, while I take a swig from this flask
Never did I imagine I would ever stare at my soul
How could this happen, my reaction I just gotta let go
Lost traction, back to rapping, that's my passion fo' sho

Take me back when I was rapping, I was just a young kid
We didn't have much, barely enough food up in the fridge
My uncle doing time, I doubt he'll ever meet his kid
It's such a shame, but who to blame I got my own life to live
I got choices to be made, why you laughing in my face?
They said I lost the art, I only took it as a mistake
I promise you that it's real while the rest show you fake
You know you're doing your job when you start to see them hate
And that's real

Where did you go, still I watch time pass
Reminisce on the moments when I made you laugh
Cooking in the kitchen, missing when I would pour you a glass
Be careful who you put first, I watched my love put me last
Nothing is the same, who to blame? people change like seasons
I'm on a road less traveled and I know there's a reason
I'm on this planet to make change while I'm surrounded by heathens
They'll suck your soul dry, while you drown with your demons
I've been dying in my dreams when I awake I'm still alive
I can't stomach what it seems, although I feel the need to cry
I hear my Mother talking while I'm walking searching for a sign
I pray Johnny D's in Heaven reciting lyrics to his Mom
Out of respect, my Pops got news that he's clear from his hep
While Mona's in the hospital we almost lost her to death
When life took a crash, my ex wouldn't even reply to my text
I was too caught up in love, while you're still caught up in debt

Take me back when I was rapping, I was just a young kid
We didn't have much, barely enough food up in the fridge
My uncle doing time, I doubt he'll ever meet his kid
It's such a shame, but who to blame I got my own life to live
I got choices to be made, why you laughing in my face?
They said I lost the art, I only took it as a mistake
I promise you that it's real while the rest show you fake
You know you're doing your job when you start to see them hate
And that's real