Crumbling Away (No E Song!)

I thought I saw you
At that party last night
And I wish that I'd said hi but I can't do anything right
I was antisocializing trying to stay out of sight
So you know I ran away oh god I'm so damn uptight

I'm just a victim
Of my idiot brain
It says that I'm a total nobody
I'm boring and plain
Not a soul is gonna fall for anything that I say
But now holy crap I'm knocking on your door anyway

And I say I kinda got a crush on you I think you should know
And it's crazy and it's scary and I'm all on my own
Anyway if you don't want to it's okay to say no
Wait I'm sorry this is stupid I should prolly just go

If you could look into my mind
It's scary to think what you might find
A million things I push away from sight
So don't try to ask if I'm all right
It's hard to think of words to say
With stupid thoughts always in my way
My ABC's just fall to gray
As I'm mumbling stumbling crumbling... away

So I found you, now I'm shy around you
I'm losing my mind but I'm so lost without you
I'm tripping on my words it's why I'm falling for you
But I'm slipping trying to follow through it's all I can do
Looking for truth, kinda scary but I'm afraid on my own
Working on my loving but I think too much and I don't
Try to fight it anyway you couldn't possibly know
Couldn't know wouldn't go shouldn't though

Would you try to work on sympathizing
I'm not womanizing I'm just humanizing
If I hadn't wound up standing at your door
I wouldn't talk to you again but now I'm obviously trying
I got a lot of songs I wanna sing, a symphony and you could bring
A tiny bit of happy in my world of pain
If I don't grab my opportunity insanity'd win
But it is not a possibility, I'm hurting again

Talking is tricky with half my words missing
Throw my mind at this wall but nothing is sticking
As I try to unwind I just find it's not fitting
I can't talk to you now so goddammit I'm ditching

Gotta run, I'll miss you a ton
Thanks for this talk it was so fing fun
I'm just gonna run from this world for a bit
I know for a fact I'm a son of a b
I know for a fact I'm a son of a b
And if I could go back I would shut down this s
And I wouldn't go up to you, wouldn't do this
I'd just stay in my room in my ignorant bliss

If you could look into my mind
It's scary to think what you might find
A million things I push away from sight
So don't try to ask if I'm all right
It's hard to think of words to say
With stupid thoughts always in my way
My ABC's just fall to gray
As I'm mumbling stumbling crumbling away